very bad day

lost the whole afternoon. Deedee had a flashback/horrible bad dream last night.
She got triggered this afternoon by a low flying plane and spent and hour huddled in the 3 ft round pipe in the dog field till H came and brought her home. He realized something was wrong cause we are never out in the field that long with the dogs. H called T and we had an "emergency" session. I'm wiped, shakey and pretty upset still. I recall the dream with much vividness unlike other bad dreams.
More like a memory. Too scary...don't want to go to that dark place...open or close my eyes and it is infront of me regardless of what I do to get rid of it...If it truly is a memory, how could someone do that to a nearly 2-1/2, 3 yr old...

((((((((((((((((((((((((W_I))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry for what y'all have been through. I'm glad that everyone worked together for safety.

I hope y'all stay safe.

KD

T helped deedee with grounding to help her realize she's not alone. It's just scary losing a whole afternoon and not knowing everything that went on. When it was me, I was so cold. (it was cold this afternoon). Just had on a sweat shirt and jeans
because I was only going to let the dogs run about 10-15 min.
I know it's all in the past and nothing will hurt me etc etc, but right now, I don't want to go to sleep. What else is there hidden inside?

((((((((((((((((((((W_I))))))))))))))))))))))

Extra for you right now...safe, warm hugs.

I hope there's nothing else there right now.

KD

wi, please take extra care of yourself and Im thinking of you.

Atg

((((((((((((((((all of you))))))))))))))))))

i'm keeping you guys in my thoughts. i am so sorry that you had to uncover such an awful memory. i hope that deedee is feeling better and that you guys are able to take a little bit of time for yourselves to try and process parts of the memory so that it will fade. if i can help, please let me know.


shadow

(((((((KD))))))))
(((((((Atg)))))))
((((((Shadow))))))
Plodding along today--deedee is doing ok but it's been awful difficult to get things done with a "little one" wanting to come out, suck her thumb and sit in the middle of the floor or in the closet.
Still new at this trying to balance what I need to get done and tend to inside others. Any help appreciated.
Prism

if there is anything i can do to help Prism, then please let me know. I will be happy to listen or help in any way that i can.

hugs to the little one and to the rest of the constellation as well ((((((((((all of you))))))))))


shadow

Thanks (((((((Shadow))))))
we're on shaky ground and trying to stay upright. Not easy right now. Not this week anyway with the holiday and all. We need to hide in a safe place. T is trying to teach deedee to stay safe and how to feel safe. She's so triggered and so scared. Makes us all feel unsettled. Keep busy try and think about anything BUT what we're afraid of don't go there can't even want to think about it.

W.I. I have been on shakey ground for most of my life. It poses this question..."When will all of this bad "stuff" end"?

TGC safe (((((((hugs))))))) for you

(((((w_i))))) (((((deedee))))) (((((Prism)))))

(((((Crystal,Amber,Vicki,Anja & the rest of the constellation)))))

PM us any time you want, we will try to help.

hi guys! i hope that deedee is having some luck finding a safe place or safe feelings. if i can help let me know. sometimes it helps to visualize a place safer than all others (one you create) until it's real in your mind. then it is nice to hang out there when things are rough. i don't know if deedee has one but if she doesn't i'd be happy to help her make one.


shadow

I care... (((((((( safe hugs ))))))))