feeling so alone

don't have words that describe the pain
feel so cold, I'm shivering
numb, lost
alone
hiding doesn't even help
scared little girl
looking for someone, something
she lost
or lost her.
too sad to look at
want to hold her but
can't
the pain is too much.

(((((((((((((((((white _iris)))))))))))))))) Oh how sad you all sound. Please dont feel lost and alone cos we are all here with you.

Atg

{{{{ w_i and all }}}}

((((((((((the constellation))))))))))

You are not alone anymore, none of you.

Thank you ((((((((((ATG6))))))))), (((((((((((Zorah))))))))))) and ((((((((((Petunia))))))))
Trying to work through some hard issues. The whole not bonding to Mother but to my Aunt and all the things that surround that. And the abuse that began when I went to live with the Parents perm and the abandonment etc, etc....

(((((((((((((( wi )))))))))))))))))

I am here for you.

Hugs,

Jan

Our mother hated us, we think

& our father died when we were 20, he might have hated us too,

we don't know .

((((((((((((((((((( zorah ))))))))))))))))))))))

Jan

((((((((((((((((((((((w_i)))))))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((((zorah)))))))))))))))

atg

(((((w_i)))))

(((((zorah))))

we are horrible children. that's why mummy wanted to leave us. we made her stay and so she is mad with us. it's our fault she is sad - it's always our fault she is sad.

everyone leaves us and hates us when they see us. we are hiding so nobody sees us.

caroline, Im sure we wont leave you

atg

you ARE NOT alone in this very specific-to-us kind of pain where their language fails- we cant give words to it eitherr but know that its real and true and you are in hurt

((((((((((((((((white iris))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((Zorah)))))))))))))))))))

we 'll never leave you dearheart, we are all the same here and we stick together
Angie

I have room under here for everyone.

Petunia

((((((((((All of you)))))))))
Such a lost feeling. If I start writing, I will bore you all to a slow death. Best I just say I am very sad inside and thankful for all the support here. Be with me while I
try and muddle through.

((( Constellation )))

I too feel alone and lost some days, then I come here.

Petunia

((((((((((( All who are hurting ))))))))))))))))

No matter what, remember, it is not your fault. It may feel like it, but it isn't. We are here for all of you. We care. We will be with you.

Hugs,

Jan

H goes away on business tonight till Tues. I may be here...We're doing ok, but all kinds of triggers...

I'll be around today if you need me.

Petunia