[shadowdancer]

First, I'm sorry that I haven't been around more to offer support to all of you. I hope that after you read this entry you'll understand why and forgive me.

This week has been the week from you know where. First it was finals week and I have four exams that are essay exams. Second, my friend waws in a car accident on saturday and is still in the hospital because he's coughing up blood. Third, I wrote down the wrong date for one of my finals and therefore I missed it so unless my teacher allows me to make it up, I'll have a D in that class... which I can't afford if i'm going to bring my GPA up enough to be able to get into grad school. Fourth, my last therapy appointment was supposed to be wednesday but I woke up late and managed to miss it when I really needed to talk to her. Fifth, it's my LAST therapy appt with my T. She is the main thing getting me through and this is the last appointment i can have with her. After this I'm supposed to go into group or something but i am completely fragmented when thinking about not being able to see her anymore. Everything is falling apart and I don't know what to do. Also, I'm like flat broke and I have to find a job.

I just don't know what to do. any suggestions?

I'll keep you updated on how this all goes... I just wish i could crawl under my bed and never come back out. sigh.


just one more shadow among shadows

It's okay shadow, we're all having big sad fall-apart days.

I hope things work out for you and your friend gets better and you get to take your test again and that you find a job and that you get to keep seeing your T.

Petunia

[Gemstone]

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I'm sorry things are so hard. I hope things get better.

[allthegirls6]

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Its all gone wrong at once for you. I hate to think of you in this situation. I missed a final once and they let me take it again at university so I know it can be done. I hope you friend recovers, it sounds serious.

As for the job..................... you just gotta get out there and pound the streets!

Please keep us updated

atg

[EJ711]

Shadow Dancer,

Sounds like you have a LOT on your plate right now, so don't be too hard on yourself about missing a few appointments, even though they were important. I see it as your brain saying, "I'm going to help you here, and blow off a few of your appointments."

Wow--that's a lot of essay exams. I hope your friend is feeling better soon. Can you talk to your professor about letting you make up the exam? Was the exam after the car accident? It's normal for people to forget things when they are stressed out.

Keep us posted as you can.

Jane

[Fuzzybear]

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[January]

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I'm sorry things are so bad for you right now. I hope things get straightened out so you can feel better soon.

Hugs,

Jan

[kimmydawn]

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you're going through so much! I'm sorry there are so many big changes going on right now. I hope the everything works out for a makeup exam and that something can be worked out and you'll continue to be able to talk with t.

Be safe,

KD

[shadowdancer]

thank you all so much for your support... here's the update:

well i managed to get to re-take my test and ended up with a B in the class so yay there.

my friend was in ICU for a week but he's out of the hospital now and doing better...still in a lot of pain with a few broken ribs and stitches and things but better.

now for the truly awful news:
my favorite cousin was killed in an accident on monday and i am not doing well. i have already had my last (the very last period) appt with my therapist and now i have no one to talk to. all the members of my family have people they can talk to...and unfortunately, for some of them that person is me. so i have no one to talk to about this and i just don't know what i'm going to do. i'm falling apart here and it's like i'm screaming inside to try and tell someone (anyone) so that i don't hit the bottom again... but no one can hear me because i'm only saying it inside my head. i just wanna give up. sigh. i don't know what to do.

fading to black,
shadow

[Zorah]

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Just keep on dancing

that's all you can do
keep on keeping on

PM if The Nest can help, or you just want to talk

Talk here. We'll listen. You can also call a crisis line and talk to a live person if you need. Are there any counselors there at the school you are going to?? Usually colleges have student counseling centers that have free crisis counseling for students.
PM if you need to talk.
w_i and all

Sorry everything is so black for you.

There are some online places you can get some help (not like a counsellor I know) like the Samaritans. You can email them and they will reply. Might that help?

Thinking of you.

[Mahali]

Shadow you have been so supportive of people here. I am very sorry about your losses and the feelings of having nobody to talk to.

I am here if you need to talk please don't hesitate. You have always been so kind.

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