[Claritytoo]

for saying too much in session. We are upset and afraid because other said too much in session.

[artyaspie]

[quote Claritytoo]for saying too much in session. We are upset and afraid because other said too much in session.[/quote]

yes, a couple of times after a session I almost didn't make it home, they were so angry with me! Really sorry you feel so upset

[Claritytoo]

I am finding that part of me don't want to go to session. It has helped us but too much is said in session. And the little ones want to talk but some of us are afraid. I don't like it when the others are upset with me. It is scares me.

[artyaspie]

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

I am finding that part of me don't want to go to session. It has helped us but too much is said in session. And the little ones want to talk but some of us are afraid. I don't like it when the others are upset with me. It is scares me.

Trust was always our biggest obstacle in therapy, it took so many years and even then it was not all of us - when you have not been able to trust anybody else in life but your own selves it feels like too much.

Found it useful to write down/draw how we felt, and share it when possible - also to try and focus on how therapy was changing life for us.

[Claritytoo]

That is good advice. I only trust my sister completely and a few friends partially. I know my t is trying to help but I don't fully trust her. And some of us don't trust her at all. We are better off because of her and I remind the others when we start to get too distrustful. The ones in the world trust her and that helps the rest of us a lot. I think we are coming close to the little ones talking to t. I think that is one of the reasons there is a strong push by the others to leave therapy. Some really want to leave therapy but the little ones don't. I feel like crying right now

[artyaspie]

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

I know my t is trying to help but I don't fully trust her. And some of us don't trust her at all. We are better off because of her and I remind the others when we start to get too distrustful. The ones in the world trust her and that helps the rest of us a lot. I think we are coming close to the little ones talking to t. I think that is one of the reasons there is a strong push by the others to leave therapy. Some really want to leave therapy but the little ones don't. I feel like crying right now

Main thing is, trust is something you choose, and little ones often want to be able to trust with their whole hearts - this can make others very anxious and afraid. Just try not to make any sudden moves on this, but allow things to settle a bit. I found building communication between selves vital, healing is such hard work and you need to rest a lot, too.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

for saying too much in session. We are upset and afraid because other said too much in session.

I used to have this problem but then my treatment provider explained to me that its pretty normal for people with any mental disorder or not to feel like they have said too much, regret saying something or have the "I should have said this.." I should have told them about that....its just part of being a human being with a logical thinking mind where we as human being can use reasoning, logic, emotions, memories to look at something and evaluate it on many different mindsets....

example look at the clouds and one person who is having a great day may see cheerful shapes. someone who is in the mindset of being angry, depressed, having a bad day will interpret what they see a different way maybe what one person thinks is a turtle another person will think the turtle shape is a monster and another may think its something graphic to do with some sort of violence to their self or others...

then you put this normal way of being human with a thinking mind in a person with DID what do you have....many different personalities functioning with their own way of being their own job, purpose reason for being created...its like a whole slew of people laying on the lawn looking at the clouds each in their own mind set seeing what pertains to them.

put this model in a therapy session and its like having a family therapy session... in a normal situation you have many family members with their own mind set, some members may think this is a bunch of crap Im not going to say anything to a therapist, you have the family member who is really open to the process and willing to talk about anything and you have family members who hold resentments if they think something like thats private not for telling other people....

put that in with someone who has DID theres alters who are open to therapy, alters who are quiet, alters who are angry... (how ever the internal system of alters is made up) so its natural to have alters who will talk about anything with the treatment provider in therapy and alters who resent that happening.

the key is that through out this completely normal thing that happens due the species we are is whether those alters who resent the openness during therapy are being a danger to their self or those who are participating in the therapy process by talking/sharing information ..

when ever it happened that my internal system of alters were not being safe with me or others my treatment provider would hospitalize so that we were in a safe setting and kept from harming myself or others as punishment for talking in therapy.

my suggestion talk with your treatment provider let them know that there are some that are against or questioning what is being talked about. they can help you set up a plan where you are all safe through this process called therapy.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by artyaspie

Main thing is, trust is something you choose, and little ones often want to be able to trust with their whole hearts - this can make others very anxious and afraid. Just try not to make any sudden moves on this, but allow things to settle a bit. I found building communication between selves vital, healing is such hard work and you need to rest a lot, too.

This is very good advice. You are right when you say the others are afraid. They are and the fear is what causes the others to get angry. We are all afraid of what the little ones will say. Not so much what happened, I think we kind of know, but the emotion and physical pain that will come with knowing.

[artyaspie]

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

You are right when you say the others are afraid. They are and the fear is what causes the others to get angry. We are all afraid of what the little ones will say. Not so much what happened, I think we kind of know, but the emotion and physical pain that will come with knowing.

The most painful memories can be held by little ones, and the pain that comes with those memories surfacing can be horrible beyond belief - really feel for you going through this, remember it only too vividly - take it slow.