in denial...

hey there i have been for the longest time denying my own alters...and i am not sure how to finally make it up to them...all the other parts inside me feel very unimportant...and i don't know how to get them to feel any different other than saying and openly admitting to myself that i have a diagnosis of DID and i know that is one thing i still have yet to do and i have had this diagnosis since i was 19 years old...and i am now 28!!!so for 9 years i have had this diagnosis and not one time have i ever wanted to even say i have alters that take totaly control and look and act differently...it's even uncomfortable writing this down even as we speak!!!and i have a really bad feeling within the pit of my stomach whenever i bring this up....like i should not talk about it....i don't know what else to do so i am trying to get some feedback on this and i want to know if anyone else does something to this affect...and what they have done or do to overcome this feeling...well i thank you all for reading this and if there are any suggstions feel free to hand them out i really do enjoy other people's point of view and suggestions.

This may sound funny, or comical, but seriously... I have accepted my DID like 14 times so far. I know this is other alters accepting the truth. So this may happen to you.

That feeling in the pit of your stomach. It's your protectors. It happens to me too. Yes even as I'm typing this. Push through it. Don't let it control you. But understand they are only trying to protect you. Assure them you are safe.

Do you keep a journal? That is the main way I have communicated to my system that many exist. Otherwise I don't know where I'd be. Locked up in a state institution, probably. Don't get me wrong this journal isn't fool proof, some still deny it.

hi blossom......i have to agree with what lidia said. i have gone from denial to acceptance many times too. the only suggestions i might add are...... dialogue writing particularly asking your system if anyone has anything to say and then letting them write.you can ask them questions after they write first, like who are you? etc....................and...if you hear a little voice asking you to buy something for them (a small thing hopefully ) buy it....that has gone a long way for my littles feeling understood...my teens too!............................................good luck in your journey....kasva

thank you lydia...and kasva for responding...i think that you all hit it dead on the nail...that part of me does accpept that i have DID...but at times another part denies that i even have it...i do usually journal...i try to write down a few sentences here and there...and i most always listen to what is said...unless it's inappropriate...which with my teen alters it usually is and they are extremely angry...i get really uncomfortable when they try to come out and argue with one another...well thank you again for writing and giving suggestions...i really do appreciate it!!!tata!!!much love being sent your way!!!

The other day 'denial' said hello again here too. It was a bit of a shock however there was a reason and a good one. Thankfully help arrived.