 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Apr 08, 2006, 04:30 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I want to disappear. This stuff, this therapy stuff, the life stuff, the understanding what I'm supposed to do stuff . . . . . . it's all confusing and doesn't make any sense. . . . . . . . I kind of understand some of the stuff that T tells me but when it comes to doing it, I just don't seem to have the strength or the conviction to believe in myself to do it . . . . . . I'm a lost soul . . . . . . I should change my username to "idiotic songbird without a brain" . . . . . great, here comes the pit again . . . . . . why can't I stay above water? . . . . . . I think my T is getting really frustrated with me and he's pushing . . . . . . . I guess I should tell him that . . . . . . then he'll abandon me and I will be all alone . . . . . . life sucks . . . . . . I am so frustrated with myself I could just tear my hair out . . . . . why am I so reistant? . . . . . what could I possibly be holding onto? . . . . . I just want to disappear from life and start over . . . . . . . I feel like I've made one mistake after another and I know it isn't true but I feel like that any way. . . . . . . I'm okay in the mornings but not in the afternoon or night . . . . . . . I wonder if it's my meds? . . . . I take that one at noon . . . . I don't know . . . . . . . just totally frustrated and beside myself . . . . . . don't know what to do . . . . . running away sounds nice . . . . . . floating away into the clouds . . . . . no, hiding in the tall grass of the meadow so no one will ever see me . . . . . . .
__________________
 "It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
|
|
#2
Apr 08, 2006, 05:19 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
Songbird and Daisy
It sounds like things are really tough for you right now. Try to hang on to the positives - "I'm okay in the mornings ". Remember youa re a good person. My T has me trying to slow down; he says I try to do toomuch too soon. Maybe that's how it is with you? Can you write some of this stuff down to give to your T? Maybe print out this post? I don't think there is any danger of him abandoning you, but I know how real that feeling can be. Remember it IS a feeling. Definitely talk to your dr about the meds. Hang on in there. You can do this. You are stong. You are holding down a job, running a house, doing all that stuff. Keep reminding yourself of those things. Maybe write out some affirmative messages to yourself on postits and put them where you keep seeing them? ((((Songbird and Daisy)))) |
|
#3
Apr 08, 2006, 07:09 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I will try Caroline.
 I wish there were somone here, on line right now.   
__________________
"It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
|
|
#4
Apr 08, 2006, 09:21 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
I think I may have missed you but I send lots of
|
|
#5
Apr 08, 2006, 09:29 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Hi Rainbowzz,
I made everyone disappear. They're too scared and hurt to do anything to help themselves so now I'm here. I like the hearts - This is my first time here. I haven't quite figured out how to do this yet.
__________________
"It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
|
|
#6
Apr 08, 2006, 11:00 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Hi there. What is it you think you should tell your T, Song? If he doesn't "know" about you being around, I think that would be a good thing to share when you can. He might seem frustrated because he wants to help so much! TC
__________________
|
|
#7
Apr 08, 2006, 11:02 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
SongBirdandDaisy said: Hi Rainbowzz, I made everyone disappear. They're too scared and hurt to do anything to help themselves so now I'm here. I like the hearts - This is my first time here. I haven't quite figured out how to do this yet. </div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Thats ok! When your posting look over to the right, you should see a bunch of smiley faces, and then it should say "More Smilies" If you click on "More smilies" a window will pop up with lots more. Just click the pictures you want to add! |
|
#8
Apr 08, 2006, 11:05 PM
|
||||
|
||||
  how did I do? Did I do it right? I don't want to make a mistake.
__________________
"It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
|
|
#9
Apr 08, 2006, 11:18 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Yea you did real good, hi I'm Laura and I'm 12
it's nice here
__________________
 A good day is when the crap hits the fan and I have time to duck. |
|
#10
Apr 08, 2006, 11:58 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
SongBirdandDaisy said: how did I do? Did I do it right? I don't want to make a mistake. </div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> WOW Good first try  looks right to me!
|
|
#11
Apr 09, 2006, 12:50 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Hi there. Am I too late?
 
__________________
 |
|
#12
Apr 09, 2006, 01:26 AM
|
|||
|
|||
|
nope!
|
|
#13
Apr 09, 2006, 06:28 AM
|
||||
|
||||
 Rainbowzz * Nothemama * Laura * Bipolar Bear * Sky I see that my teenager was here last night. Thank you all for taking care of her. I'm surprise she did. She is scared of a lot of things, but I guess desperate times call for desperate measures. I'm glad she was able to reach out to all of you. And so Thankful that all of you were there for her. Last night was truly difficult. I did talk to T and I guess it was after that that she came here. Boy, I've got a headache - no I wasn't drinking.  Songbird and Daisy and All The Seedlings
__________________
"It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
|
|
#14
Apr 10, 2006, 07:31 PM
|
||||
|
||||
 How are YOU? You truly are invisible!
__________________
"It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
|
|
#15
Apr 11, 2006, 03:45 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
((((((((((((( Bear ))))))))))))))
__________________
|
|
#16
Apr 11, 2006, 03:49 PM
|
||||
|
||||
 
__________________
|
|
#17
Apr 11, 2006, 03:50 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
((((Everyone)))))
|
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
Similar Threads
|
||||
| Thread | Forum | |||
| may trigger... not nice stuff | Survivors of Abuse | |||
| Girl Stuff? Sex Stuff? JUST STUFF | Health Forum | |||
| ARGH-- stuff I thought about 2 days ago "daydream" stuff. | Post-traumatic Stress | |||
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
