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Apr 07, 2006, 07:51 PM
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I made a bad decision and now all of the seedlings are freaking out! In the middle of the night, Daisy sent T an e-mail. I'm being flooded with emotions and thoughts and having bad ideas and can't make up my mind and can't focus my thoughts and this totally BITES!
Now, I'm getting angry at myself for being such an idiot and I can't change it. Just when I was making progress. Why do these things happen? I want to find a hole and bury myself in it. I just don't get this stuff! T keeps trying and trying and I can't figure it out! GGGRRRR!!!!  Songbird 
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Apr 07, 2006, 08:01 PM
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Daisy sent T an e-mail.
Why is this a bad decision? I'm getting angry at myself for being such an idiot and I can't change it. Sweetie, you know this will get you nowhere fast. Try to have some compassion for yourself, as you would others if they were to say the same thing. 
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Apr 07, 2006, 08:25 PM
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Daisy sending T an e-mail wasn't a bad decision. Something I did was a bad decision and it upset the whole system. Daisy came out in the middle of the night and did that.
You're right, I need to be more compassionate with myself. Problem is, I don't like myself very much right now. I feel like I don't deserve to be nice to me. Like I am no good.  Songbird
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Apr 07, 2006, 08:28 PM
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I do understand that feeling. It's a crappy place to be but I know for me, it's familiar. It's so much easier to berate myself than it is to find an ounce of compassion. I am trying to figure out why that is such an automatic reaction for me. I suppose it comes from being treated that way...like I must've been bad for people to treat me that way so I'll prove it.
 I dunno. I do understand where you are... |
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Apr 07, 2006, 08:42 PM
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Petunia, I don't know what to say. I'm just sad. Thank you for the good thoughts.
 Songbird
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#6
Apr 07, 2006, 08:44 PM
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Sad is okay as long as you don't visit there for very long.
I used to have a thread called Sad Land. It started out for this purpose but ended way funny.  ((((( hugs to you ))))) |
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Apr 08, 2006, 02:11 AM
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(((((((((((((((((Songbird)))))))))))))))))
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Apr 08, 2006, 05:35 AM
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((((((((((((((((((((((((Petunia)))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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#9
Apr 08, 2006, 05:36 AM
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(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Bipolar Bear)))))))))))))))))))))))))
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Apr 08, 2006, 06:49 AM
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(((((((((Songbird and Daisy)))))))))))))
Hang on in there. You are doing well - just remember that. |
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Apr 08, 2006, 08:35 AM
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Thanks Caroline I'm trying
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Apr 08, 2006, 08:56 AM
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(((((((((((((((((((SongBird))))))))))))))))))))))
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Apr 08, 2006, 10:43 AM
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 Good Morning, Fuzzy! I feel good today. I didn't sleep well and it's cloudy outside and cold, but I feel good.Thank you to all those who sent good wishes. Songbird and Daisy
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Apr 09, 2006, 08:49 PM
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 I want to walk off the face of the earth. Daisy is so incredibly sad and she's clinging to my thoughts - she comes in and out and I feel her and her grief and confusion and her longing to just be loved . . . . . . it's overwhelming, but how could I turn her away? She's so little and so sad.Then I'm beating myself up for not being more motivated and not getting things accomplished. It's been a rough day. I talked to T last night because I wasn't safe. Today is better, but, I fall into the pit and look around and wonder what it is I'm doing with my life. I feel so damned useless and not worth the trouble. T said "sorry to disappoint you, but you're not useless." It kind of made me laugh. Oh boy, this is such a bad place that I am in.
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