Feeling very insignificant. Anyone out there care?

Hi everyone....

So I'm just feeling very low and insignificant today. My birthday was passed over without much thought. The ones inside are all scared, depressed, low, and self destructy. Alex wants to smoke, drink, and SI. Squeek wants to curl up with a teddy bear, a blanky and hot coco. Nina wants to shop until we have no money left. Cas wants to fall apart. Laney wants to cry. Ki wants to binge drink and hook up. Emberlynn is just depressed and boring. I am trying to hold it together for everyone. We have to play a huge roll in a wedding on Saturday, and I am so worried we will screw it up for our best friend.

Then there is also this awful feeling lately that we all are feeling. Everyone of us feels like all the others within hate one another. We all just want to be accepted by the others, but our system is in crisis. Things are changing and change is detrimental. Always.

No one has to comment or anything. We just feel so tragic and pathetic.

Um. Have a good day everyone...

Shanna

Oh, and Rosalie is about to spaz out on the house and clean everything for the next 7 hours.

Shanna

sorry you feel that way

I think Squeek has the right idea. When there's this much distress going on, it might be a good idea to let yourself be babied a bit, just curl up with stuffy and blankie and a soothing hot drink.
Do you understand what you need to do in the wedding? Were you able to participate in a rehearsal? Try not to worry about it too much. I'm sure you will be able to do your part. Even if you would make an error, it wouldn't ruin things. The wedding is for your best friend, right? I'm sure she would forgive you if erred. Don't be afraid to ask others in the wedding for reminders of what to do if you need to. Everyone participating will be nervous too, so it will be good for all of you to support each other.

Hi everyone inside GypsyRosalie. You all do not know any of us.
We do care though. Maybe the best friend getting married is scary? Your friendship will change a little but you will all still be important. If you all can remember, you all have each other. So what some like to do different things. Even the less positive things have a similar goal: provide adequate distraction to the current stress and feelings. A little cleaning always has helped us unwind a bit....get engrossed with cleaning. Something warm to drink with a stuffy can be a reward for the great cleaning job. Your best friend may not understand how hard the wedding is for you all. Perhaps you could write her a letter...you do not have to give it to her...just release the emotions onto paper. You all may feel better...or you all may decide to take a nap after writing the letter. Not much of an alcohol drinker, but the fizzy seltzer water feels like what we think a drink must feel like. So drinking a soda can help us feel better. Normally we only have seltzer water in the house, but we have bought soda when very stressed.
As scary as change is...it can be positive. Often the positive part cannot be seen immediately, but it is there.
Everyone take a deep breath...remember the love you have for the best friend, breathe out. You all will survive this Wedding and the changes. Look you have all survived thus far so you all know how to do something!
Let us know how things work out...not the wedding...how all within handle the wedding.
Here is a gentle hug too.

H A PP Y B I R TH D A Y

May you all have many more birthdays and may the future birthdays be remembered with a wonderful celebration. So what if the actual day passed. Celebrate today! We are happy you all were born... So let's get the pop corn popped and pour the pepsi....!

Thank you so much to everyone for the comments and hugs. Bmee2, thank you for your kind words and insight. We all handled the wedding very well. We were a bridesmaid, her hand maid (doing everything the maids of honor should have done), and we ran the reception. We didn't mess up even once! It all went perfectly well. We didn't even ramble or stutter when talking to all those people on the microphone!
Also, I think as an extra stress relief for the it's-all-over stress, we will be cleaning the house from top to bottom tomorrow. Things all seem to be coming together now...

Shanna

Just wanted to say hello, I don't think we have met before. I do like your sig. Welcome to you all!

Hi pegasus. I've seen you around, but I don't know that I've ever said much of anything in the same thread as you. Thank you for the welcome and compliment on my signature. the poem is an original I wrote, and the blue bit was off of a show I've watched.

Shanna

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Gypsie Rosalie,

What great reaching out for support! The wedding sounded like it went well and someone/s within did their perfect job!

Bmee2, you gave such sound advice and gracious encouragement. I think I may use the soda water idea in future.

Oh, and a Happy belated Birthday!

wow am totally amazed at what you know if I only knew half what you know of your insiders that would be awesome.

We are who we are no matter what anyone says. Our decisions are our decisions and is what we all have to deal with and then some.......

hope not being disrespectful

mlyn, our core Cas doesn't know much... I am the only one that talks to and knows most of what goes on inside. That's my job.

Shanna

I care.

Hi, Gypsie Rosalie. I care, too. Happy Birthday to all of you. Cleaning for 7 hours might be a little extreme. Obviously spending all yoyr money is a BAD idea as well as drinking and hooking up. Cleaning for a couple hours and spending a budgeted amount if money would be ok. Maybe watching a romantic movie with a stuffy and a warm drink ? May everyone have a good bday. Hugs. May angels surround you.