#@!#% d.i.d

I hate it when my stupid parts switch in and out all day at work.I look like an idiot in front of my co-workers and patients when i cant remember what we just said did 2 minutes ago .I am fighting the urge to SI....I don't know what to do.i wish i had some one who could one to one me tonight..i don't feel safe

I"m so sorry you're hurting. Can you tell me what's going onj? I'll be checking in all evening. We're in a 'bad' place too. We could hellp each other. What can you do to feel safe? Have you learned healthy distractions.?

((((((((((((((((such is life...))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry you are struggling with this. I have struggled with this before as well and I know it's so hard.

Do you work a job where you are allowed to listen to music or anything? What I have done in the past is put old tv shows and old/children's music (stuff from when the body was young) on an iPod. Then I would use ear phones and put the iPod in my pocket so it just looked like I was listening to music (I mostly listened to the tv shows). It seemed to distract other parts somehow and help me to calm down. When I am calmer, I don't switch as much and so I was able to be more present and not feel so lost.

Another thing I did for my job (and you may or may not be able to do this but maybe some kind of variation would work) is to have people write things down or send me emails for everything. Even if they explained what I needed to be doing, I asked them to send an email because "I am just so forgetful and want to make sure I do a good job." They might have thought I was eccentric, but who can argue with wanting to do a good job. That helped me to at least get a bit more information than I would otherwise.

I don't know if these will help, but maybe it will at least give ideas that might lead to something that will help.

Please keep yourself safe. If you can't, please seek 3D help.

Oh, I do know what you mean, my thoughts are with you. (((((((( such is life... ))))))))

I haven't mastered how to control switching or even if it can be done ....but i am an sra survivor and some calendar days are very hard....it's hard to explain but the numbers 1 and 3 or any derivatives IE... money, calendar dates...any form of numbers that are derivatives of 1 and 3....there's a lot any way for some reason i never know whats wrong or that it has anything to do with ritual junk until like the next day or after talking with T. So last night/yesterday we did hide things that could be used to SI and we made every one go to sleep with a soft blanket and a stuffed bunny called Sunshine for the little ones.One day we will be able to handle triggering dates....AHEAD of time.We are okay today, we made it through a bad day to the other side....I'm pretty proud that we are learning self care Thank you for the support wanttoheal....i like that name because i want to heal too ....and i am healing a little at a time , day by day haha sometimes minute by minute

Thank you pegasus you always know just what to say....I appreciate that. We made it through the day yesterday and we've been okay today. Some calendar days are hard on the System...but we are learning to self help . Sometimes just writing it out here on PC helps get it out of our head.
Thanks again life...

with a soft blanket and a
I am okay now. Thanks for the support.The System put everyone to bed with a soft blanket and a stuffed bunny called Sunshine

Unfortunately I am unable to control switching as well and I don't have co consciousness. I wish I did. But I have noticed when I do stuff like that (listening to the shows, etc), other parts seem to be distracted (or maybe it's me that is distracted so that I don't notice triggers as much and don't switch? Not sure), and if I'm able to avoid triggers and stay calm, I think I switch less. I am sra survivor as well. I understand how hard it is. I have problems with color and seasons and anything religious.... I'm so glad you are working toward healing. I have come a long way in the last several years and it does get better. Please hang in there. There is healing to be had. I'm amazed at where I was from 8 years ago. It can happen for sure.

we are sra survivors too but still being accessed. it stinks

We are still being accessed too! I hate that!! I don't understand how "they" can sleep at night knowing what they do to little kids and (us) Anyway I have to watch certain calendar dates....stupid cult people! PS invisible butterfly we should talk one day...sounds like we have some things in common.

Thanks I am working very hard with a T that has 20 years working with SRA survivors..it's hard work! you said it does get better???....when?!?

ok but only through PM cause thats only way we feel safe♥

Agreed.PM me and if you want send a friend request I am going to take a nap. I am safe right now

(((((such is life))))) We're sending you lots of hugs.