being plauged by senses

i usually have sense of smell shut off - but tonight it is full on and i can hardly stand it. It is not of the present and triggering me big time.
Also having body pain in the abdomin, as well as the memories i will be facing with T tomorrow and the mind holding other memories on its own.
working on staying safe and keeping destructive alter from surfacing.
Forgot dinner meds, so that doesn't help and I can't double them or I won't wake in time for my apnts tomorrow. T always says "call any time" but I don't want to lose her by bugging her too much. I just met the woman in April.
Great, now my hands aren't my own. Isn't depersonalization fun? i took my night meds early hoping that will help and i can just go to bed, sleep this off. Some scary emotions keep trying to surface and I keep stuffing them back down.

Just hang in there, the t appointment shouldnt be too much longer. Have you tried changing the smell? I get the smell memories and taste memories. Maybe when this happens you could get something strong smelling to keep with you? I use vicks vapo rub and put a dot above my lips so thats all i smell. When i get the taste memory, i grab a mint to cover the taste and i push the memories away until im in a better state to remember them.

I hope you are feeling better this morning

Good ideas - thanks.
T said we wouldn't process trauma today because she's going out of town and doesn't want me in a bad state and not able to reach her. :/
I know she did that from a caring place, but it did end up putting me in a bad state because I was all prepared to deal with it and now i have to hold on to it for a long time. *sigh* I couldn't even tell her - i just shut down. Poor T's wrong no matter how they try it