I want you guys to be my frends. But im scared. Its melly again. Mandie doesnt want me to come out i dont think because i am .. Its just i get mad sometimes. And i dont mean to do hurtful things but i just get so mad.

I wish she could just understand that I feel mad for them, because its not safe for them to get angry. Can i say angry here? I promise i dont want to hurt any of you. I just hate him.

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((melly))))))))))))))) I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. It is hard when someone hurt you to not feel mad. Please try and be kind to yourself.

[January]

((((((((((( Melly )))))))))))))

You can say "angry" here. It's ok. You can talk to us anytime. You're safe with us.

Love and hugs,

Jan

thank you bipolarbear and thank you january.

I get real mad sometimes. Sometimes i am so mad. sometimes i want to hit things but the nice woman wrote me a lette.r she said that i didnt have to hit people anymore.She said that if i just hit people then it isisnt the same as if i write how angry i am and why. I only hit one person ever that girl from school. But i hit things sometimes. Cause its not fair that I have to go tell all my embarassing secrets infront of a judge. But, i dont want to hurt people. Today instead i hit a pillow. I hit it ten or twenty times. but i still let my anger out. Its scary thinking that if i get angry. Because what if i hurt someone? Thats why i stay quiet mostly. Im always scared ill hurt someone. one time when living with my nannie she went in the bathroom and we were arguing. she was sitting on the toilet which was right behind the door to the bathroom (it swung that way) and i didnt k now.. charged in and the doorknob hit her on the forhead and made her bleed on the forhead. I cried I didnt know she was right behind the door. Then she died and I didnt get to tell her. Do you think she knows?



I need to figure out how to be mad without hurting others.

Please noone be scared of me. I would never hurt you. But i think of himand I just get so mad

[LILITH]

{{{{{Melly}}}}} so sorry you are feeling sad and angry... Hope you will feel safe here too! I do....take care...

[January]

(((((((((((((( Melly ))))))))))))))

I do think your Nanny knows it was just an accident. Accidents happen to everyone. It's all right.

I think you did a wonderful job by hitting the pillow and working your anger out that way. That's a very healthy way to do it and I'm proud of you for taking that step.

We aren't afraid of you, sweetie. You have friends here already!

Hugs,

Jan

[allthegirls6]

((((((((((((melly)))))))))))))))

hello and good to hear from you. Its OK to get mad andI know you wont hurt us.