I am only good for one thing. Cant do anything right. I try all the time and I just get in trouble. I cant help it I cant, I mean it. School is too hard because they all make fun of me. Im not one of the cool kids. I got in a fight this year because this girl in my class when i moved to this school, she was telling the other girls in my class things about me that werent true, only from one desk away! She told them i dont shower and that i pee my pants - I dont pee my pants. Of course the other girls beleived her. its so frustrating.

I dont like much and i always cut school because its too hard for me to understand some of the subjects and it just makes it harder cause they put me in the dummy class. we get to do almost nothing all day mind you but i am good at some things.

I get to teach art to grade primary - six this year because our program got cut. Im friends with mr green, the art teacher. hes the only one who beleives in me really. i painted an eagle and he hung it up on the wall going into school where everyone could see it. he says that i should go to art school. i duno though, im only 14.

sometimes i go down to the classroom where the disabled kids are, they are so sweet even though they cant do things like most of us. josh is a guy there, he cant talk and he is in a wheelchair, i dont know whats wrong with him but i know hes nice cause he always smiles. a while ago he came to art class and i got to help him fingerpaint. he smiled and laughed and it made me feel good.

sometimes i wish i could just do these things. instead of math and stuff. math is so hard i could cry. I dunno.

and i can never concentrate because of the cort stuff. sometimes i cant get away from it.. i dont like to talk about it but i was told i can trust you guys and you never hurt the others so i guess. I write alot, i know. I win awards sometimes for my writings. I wrote poems that got published one year a while back. I dont have them now though.

i like my room because i can decorate it like me. my nannie lets me do whatever i want to it. it makes it so much better for me because i can change it like i change, which is alot. but it sucks not going to school too because the friends i do have i dont get to see and then i feel dumb when they come get me after school.

-~*~melly~*~

[nothemama8]

Melly, your not dumb and you are able to do alot of things that others can't or won't, sweetie so many ppl would never think to help a disabiled person learn to fingerpaint, you thaught him something fun and new. That girl who talked about you was mean and ignorant, remeber you are beautiful inside and out, she will always be ignorant
Love you bigggggggg much
Angie

thank you angie.

i guess they were right it is kind of nice here. I wasnt sure about posting much because i was scared of the same thing here that happens at school. Ill try tho and see how it goes.

Its just hard when noone is like you. plus where i live is so small that everyone knows when you fart crooked as my nannie says

[hillbunnyb]

Rainbowwz, Dumb ignorant girls gave me a hard time because I had to wear white socks with clunky shoes because I grew too fast for my feet to hold me up when I was 13. It really hurt my feelings even though I knew they were stupid.

I didn't fit in at my school either. But that was a long time ago.
We only had two kinds of schools: public and Catholic. What I needed was neither of those. Nowadays with charter schools and other choices, maybe you could fine a better fit for your style of learning.

I think it's awesome that you are good at working with challenged kids. Sounds like you are "Big Sister" material. You could join a group with other kindhearted people like yourself.
Give the snobs something to think about!!!
)))))))))) Rainbowwz (((((((( (( bumpies 4 U

[Fuzzybear]

Melly you aren't dumb! I think that mean people are dumb and stinky too I will growl at them for you any time you want!

((((((((( melly ))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((melly))))))))))))))))) You are a wonderful kind person. Try and see how caring you were for other people. And you can do things well. Everyone has things they do well and things they don't. Try and recognize those things that you have excelled at. I wish I could see your eagle. I like you just the way you are.

[January]

((((((((( Melly ))))))))))

I know it's very hard, but try to remember those rude girls are the ones who don't think and are cruel and mean. I so understand what it's like to be tormented because you're different. I am so sorry that you have to deal with that.

I think you are very kind and special. It takes a special heart to be patient with those with special needs. In my eyes, you are a wonderful person.

Hugs,

Jan

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Melly,

Hi. My name is Ann. Some people know me as Snowbird. But I don't care who knows my name any more.

People make fun of me at school too. They call me "shock head" because I have really curly hair. I'm not cool. But I am very smart. They can never take that away from me. They took away everything else.

I know it's hard. They made fun of me in school and when I go home, bad things. And my sisters make fun of me. They even tied me to a post.

I would like to be your friend. You don't have to be anything or look a certain way or do certain things, or wear certain clothes. I know that it is what is inside that counts. I have to believe that because I know there is something special inside and I hope someday I have the freedom to show it.

Hope to hear from you. I truly hope you feel better soon.

Ann

[abbynormal]

oh i hurt so much for all of you.... we all have such stories........ i hurt