[Jennifer1084]

Now what?

My angry part just came out and hurt me again, it seems to be worse this time, maybe it was just longer or something. Or maybe it's just different than usual, I don't know. I really hate when this happens, I'm sure everyone does. I don't know what to do, my therapist doesn't really seem to do much about it.

Sometimes I hear him threatening my life, that's when I go to the hospital. But it wasn't like that this time. He told me he was going to hurt me, but I didn't really listen.

Sorry if I've been bothering everyone, I'm really trying not to. I do feel bad about posting again. Sorry everyone.

[January]

(((((((( Jennifer ))))))))))))))

You are not bothering anyone. We are here to support each other.

I honestly don't know what to tell you but I am sure the others have some good advice. Do be sure and keep yourself safe.

Hugs,

Jan

what does he do?? can you keep yourself safe?
is there anyone around you can call?

[Jennifer1084]

He cuts me or scratches me or hits me sometime, so I'm told. I live with my parents but that doesn't really stop anything or help any. I'm trying to keep myself as safe as I can be. He hasn't threatened to kill me for about 4 weeks now, so that is good. The only place I have to call is the hospital here, but that isn't really the greatest thing to do. I don't want to end up there every time this happens.

I have an alter that cuts. She is angry and in alot of pain. Have you tried having this part journal or talk about what he is so angry about?
It is scary.

[Jennifer1084]

yeah I've tried to journal with him but it just seems to make him more upset or something. He writes back some pretty nasty stuff and usually hurts me. So I've been trying to stay away, I try to listen sometimes, but you're right it's scary.

He needs to be heard. Can he talk to your T? There's a reason he's angry. He has a story.
I've got to go to bed. But will check in tomorrow
w_i

[Jennifer1084]

Yeah, my therapist has talked to him before. But it didn't really help any. I'm wondering if she needs to try to talk to him again. But part of me wonders if she just is trying to stay away from talking about my parts and to my parts. I guess we are just busy talking about other things. I think she's trying to work on too much at one time. But maybe that's just how it works. I'm to shy, scared (or whatever word you want to put) to ask or tell her about all this.
I'm sure there is a reason he is angry and he has a story.

Maybe I just need to listen better or something. Maybe pay attention.

Hi--hope you had a better night. Maybe you have a part that can talk to your T better. Or write down what you want to tell T but can't say. We do that alot. You are in charge of your therapy. It is up to you to set the pace and to work on what you think is important at the time. It is also important that your T address and acknowledge your parts. Our T struggles with that too sometimes.
I don't know what "other things" you are talking about, but I know for us, that if a part is really acting out or upset, that is what we work on because most likely something triggered that insider to act out and finding that trigger is important, esp. when Naomi (the one that cuts) is triggered. If the body/system is in danger, that is what needs to be dealt with.
Remember that YOU hired the T, not the other way around. If you aren't getting the help you need, you can look for another T. It is always an option--not saying you should, just saying that you have choices and options for your care.
w_i

[hillbunnyb]

Jennifer, just want you to know us bunnies care and hope you are safe.