may have some triggering comments...not sure

Not too sure why i am here right at the moment...just felt the need to write is all i suppose...but anywhoo...i am not doing the best...well...acutually i am sinking at a rapid rate and figured that this may be a good thing for me to do is see if others are having similar experiences...i feel as though i am out of control...currently at this time...i feel as though i need to cry...but i am not able to...yet...my body finds a way to work around that...and i guess since its been so long since i have felt this way...or really even felt at all i am not sure exactly how to handle this...all the switching is really draining my mind and body...badly...and to make matters worse...since i live with my mom...unfortunately she gets the brunt of this wreckage...and believe me...she so doesnt deserve that in the least...i dont know what to do anymore...i used to...and lately its like the light is completely off...and i just feel so down...and not sure what to do anymore...i am sorry...i dont know what else to do...none of me does...this is too much for me to handle...and when i say me...i say all of me...i dont know what to do anymore...i am having a really difficult time...especially living with all of me...and i dont understand how my mom can live with me...i am not able to live with me...especially not for much longer...not like this...well...i am soo sorry if this is triggering...i will put a trigger sign on this...just in case...gotta go...sorry...

I am sorry to hear you are feeling bad. Where I live it is cold and cloudy and that always makes me depressed. Maybe you are depressed. It sounds like you have a lot going on. Do you have a t? If not you should find one. If you do have your t than you should be telling him/her how you are feeling. A lot of people feel depressed this time of year. The good thing is that we are almost done with winter, than the the flowers will be back with the warm days. Can't wait. Feel better.

Awww thank you soo much Clarity...and yeah...winter has never really been my best time...and yes i do have a T...and we work really together...i see her once a week usually on Wednesdays...and yeah we are starting to share more with her than normal...and things are getting really rocky and scary its like i am stepping out of my comfort zone each time we talk...but they said that doing so will help the healing process...and i hope that they are right...(my T and my Nurse Practitioner)that is who they are...but anywhoo...i thank you for that glimmer of hope Clarity...i cant wait for warmer and sunnier weather!!!with all kinds of blossoming may flowers wink wink wink!!!well i am gonna get going now...take care!!!Lots of(((*HUGS*)))your way!!!