DID and Anxiety Attack

I am having major anxiety attacks. I just re-entered the work place I am a marketing and Image consultant for a professional speaker. Most of my work is phone sales, I love the work I do however, it really goes against my multiple personality disorder because in order to book a speaker for a gig, I have to use cleaver lines and disgiuses to get contact names and neccessary information to sell the speaking engaement.

Since I have over 25 personas the ability to get the sales pitch done is almost second nature. The big however, after doing the telemarketing for 4 hours a day, the real me is so lost I get physically sick with a panic attack from all the switching and then trying to bring me the host back.

The work itself is so much fon for my alters but it ends up draining me for the rest of the night.

I am not sure I should be doing this type of work again. I am sort of scared, got any advice

my experiences with having DID, my therapy and research for it all in my blog. To get there click on the word - Blogs - at the top of the page then on the page that comes up click on my recent entry under my blog title - Me, Myself, and I (or click on - Me yself and I in the gray box on the right) This will get you to my blog. Click on the title letterhead and that will bring up some links along the right side. Click on - Blog index - and you will see a list of my blog entries. Just click on the ones you want to read.

Sometimes when clicking on the word - Blogs - you wont get right into the members blog area. On that page is where Doc John does his blog. Along the left side you will see the words - get your own - Click on that and it will bring you to the members blogs, then like above click on Me Myself and I or my recent entry. and you will be in my blog.

Sorry about your getting panic attacks. I don't experience panic attacks from switching, I get a headache afterwords and even that isnt too bad since I have always had headaches because I have always been DID (at least since I was 5) so even the h eadaches seem like just the norm for me. I have never heard of panic attachs from switching so I can't help you there other then suggesting maybe talking to your therapist can help you with that if you have one. or it could be social stress and anxiety not associated with your having DID, in which case talking with your family physician may help.

hang in there

Maybe this was too much all at once? I know if I'm not working for awhile I have to get back into the swing of things very slowly.

Hang in there.