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Hello. Just wanted to introduce myself. I have did. I'm in therapy - have been inpatient in the past. Now outpatient. Trying to keep moving forward one millimeter at a time. Feeling very isolated and alone lately so hoping maybe can find a sense of community here.

welcome, here you not alone!

Welcome. U are in the right place..There are many here who are willing to hear about your journey in life and in the process give u useful advise.

This community is at your disposal...

Use it as u see fit.

Again....Welcome my friend..

"almostthere"

welcome...you will find many people here that share some of the same interests you do and a lot of differences too...including how DID affects you differently than others...

example...with me I didnt feel alone because I had all the alters inside of me...I could hear the voices, I would sometimes find things going on in the home to which I didnt remember doing, even when I lived alone, so there was so much to do...that lead to me being able to occupy/entertain myself, which meant I was never lonely, or crave a lot of things like friends/company..for me I actually enjoyed the rare times when I did not hear any voices, didnt have to go play softball/bowling because one of my alters joined the towns softball or bowling league, or go to this community picnic, work functions.... Most if not all my alters were what my treatment providers call ...categorical...(the DSM called it being distinct....what that means is almost all if not all (because we never knew all my alters, ) had their own jobs, purposes, reasons for being, their own way of thinking and perceiving their environments and others..

but on the other side of things like you I have been inpatient, and at times it did seem like I was moving forwards at a snails pace..

eventually all my alters integrated/became one with me so that now we are one whole person again....

dont worry too much about how you are progressing forwards...each person moves forwards at what ever pace is right for them because each persons internal system of alters is set up how ever with who ever /what ever they needed in order to survive.

Thanks everyone. I have not been working (on disability) for about 7-8 months now. And for the past two months have had my little guy (18 months) home with me instead of at daycare. Thinking we will probably put him back in daycare at lleast part time because I struggle taking care of him full time and need some time to focus on me.

I am becoming more and more co-conscience... which is interesting... Not sure yet if I prefer being out of the loop vs this. But still loosing a lot of time too. I can relate to "having to go" do things. I get signed up for play dates and all kinds of kid stuff. I hate other people's bratty kids. I hate talking about mommy things. But like today, I didn't want to go but I did and little guy had fun and I checked out and let the one who likes that stuff have at it. I would have rather stayed home and colored or read books or cleaned my bathroom. seriously.

Anyway, recently i've just felt a lot like there is no one else on earth that understands - no one believes. Where I just moved from, even my P.Doc didn't believe in DID. Even after I came back from a specialty inpatient program just for dissociative disorders and ptsd - he wants to continue treating bipolar - which i am not.

So it feels good to find this place. I hate it that we all have this one thing in common because that means we all went through some not so nice stuff. But maybe knowing I am not alone in this will help me feel less crazy and isolated from the rest of humanity.

Oh dear I am babbling, as I often do.

Thank you for the kind welcome

Im a mama too, and I am struggling taking care of my two. I havent been diagnosed with a dissociative disorder, so I cant actually "claim" one. But if I was allowed to pick one, it would be derealization. I experience alot of anhedonia (lack of pleasure) every day, and constantly stay spaced out/brain fog, it is very scary. I know how extremely difficult it is going through these things, and having to take care of children at the same time. I am hopeful however, that there is treatment out there, treatment that will help everyone. Dont lose hope. I hope to talk to you more.

Welcome to the DD forum DeeMultipleMe and lolli!