[Swaith]

Hi all, My name is swaith.

The reason i took the Sanity score revolves around my constant lack of feelings towards pretty much anything.

I keep suffering from long periods of time where I have no memories. I also keep experiencing hallucinations of what I can only describe as "grey" people. I know they dont exist but I hear them and see them all the time. it has now escalated where I cannot look at mirrors while tired or I see things I cannot describe here.

I cannot sit in a room in silence without hearing whispers in the white noise or seeing shadows under my door. I hear them right now at the landing waiting and listening for a chance where I am not watching to come in.

During the day I hear voices and screaming, none make any sense but they are more aggravated the longer I dont talk with them about anything. they dont make any sense but their tone is what I understand.

Its got past the point of no return I only want help in understanding what It is I am experiencing. if this is the stuff that I remember and forces me to carry a lighter incase of the lights going out. What excatly have I imagined in-between that has caused me to dissociate it from my memory?

My room is getting colder and my heart is racing, I can hear movement outside my curtain and my music has stopped for no reason. the tv flickers and no longer makes any sound. I have to stare at a fixed point because I can see one of them watching me from outside the window.

Please advise what to do to get rid of these visions.

[innocentjoy]

You need to see a professional. Your experiences could be coming form many many different issues. The only one who would really be able to help you figure it out and get your life back would be a professional.
I'm so sorry things are so scary for you right now. I hope that you have the strength to reach out to someone in real life and talk to them. Your doctor would be a good start, or a therapist, someone who can give you referals to see a trained professional. Best wishes. IJ