[Vanny100]

I've only know about my DID/MPD for about a year now. Some of my alters talked to my friends and told them before I knew. But the weird thing is, I can communicate with my alters; there's no blacking out or major time lapses. I still forget the majority of what happens in my life besides major events. Most of what I know if from pictures or stories people tell me. I have some memories if I make myself think real hard but it's difficult and fuzzy.
My alters, of which I have 11 that I know of, mostly aim to protect me. They all have names and unique personalities, some of which I know I would never ever be like independently. My head is kind of different though. I kind of designed a mansion inside my head where all my alters and I think and... They've got different appearances from my physical body. I know it sounds weird but we're all on the same site you know?
Is there anyone else out there that can communicate and visualize their alters? I'd love to hear from you (:


Annah
Z, R, L, E, L, A, C, J, L, B, & K

[Rzay4]

Yes and yes. I can completely relate. I have seven alters all of whom I can communicate with. I also have periods of times were my alters will take over and I will lose track of time. Finally someone who understands. :-)

[Vanny100]

Originally Posted by Rzay4

Yes and yes. I can completely relate. I have seven alters all of whom I can communicate with. I also have periods of times were my alters will take over and I will lose track of time. Finally someone who understands. :-)

I'm so glad I'm not the only one.. My bf had DID too and he always passed out. He either got over it or suppressed them so the alters don't appear anymore. Personally, I feel like my alters are my friends.. They keep me safe and always look out for what's best for me. I'm afraid of telling anyone, even my family, because I'm afraid they'll push me to see a doctor or institutionalize me... Both of which frighten me. I love my alters, I don't want them to go away, even if it does take a toll on me socially and mentally..

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Vanny100

I've only know about my DID/MPD for about a year now. Some of my alters talked to my friends and told them before I knew. But the weird thing is, I can communicate with my alters; there's no blacking out or major time lapses. I still forget the majority of what happens in my life besides major events. Most of what I know if from pictures or stories people tell me. I have some memories if I make myself think real hard but it's difficult and fuzzy.
My alters, of which I have 11 that I know of, mostly aim to protect me. They all have names and unique personalities, some of which I know I would never ever be like independently. My head is kind of different though. I kind of designed a mansion inside my head where all my alters and I think and... They've got different appearances from my physical body. I know it sounds weird but we're all on the same site you know?
Is there anyone else out there that can communicate and visualize their alters? I'd love to hear from you (:


Annah
Z, R, L, E, L, A, C, J, L, B, & K

no my DID was a bit different in that I did lose time. the only time I could "see" my alters in any way was when my meds were not working right for my bipolar induced psychosis and I could talk inside to a limited few who never answered back, but knew they heard be because their internal discussions changed, or I felt calmer.

That said I I do know some people that have had the same problem that you have...recently their treatment providers have changed their diagnosis from DID to OSDD because here we go by the new diagnostic standards in the DSM 5 where OSDD is having less severity then DID like not having that time loss..

[Vanny100]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

no my DID was a bit different in that I did lose time. the only time I could "see" my alters in any way was when my meds were not working right for my bipolar induced psychosis and I could talk inside to a limited few who never answered back, but knew they heard be because their internal discussions changed, or I felt calmer.

That said I I do know some people that have had the same problem that you have...recently their treatment providers have changed their diagnosis from DID to OSDD because here we go by the new diagnostic standards in the DSM 5 where OSDD is having less severity then DID like not having that time loss..

Oh. See, I've never actually talked to a doctor about it... Like I said, I'm too scared... I want to live a normal life and graduate from college and get married and have a normal job... I don't want that stigma of being unstable or something...

[likewater]

Originally Posted by Vanny100

I'm so glad I'm not the only one.. My bf had DID too and he always passed out. He either got over it or suppressed them so the alters don't appear anymore. Personally, I feel like my alters are my friends.. They keep me safe and always look out for what's best for me. I'm afraid of telling anyone, even my family, because I'm afraid they'll push me to see a doctor or institutionalize me... Both of which frighten me. I love my alters, I don't want them to go away, even if it does take a toll on me socially and mentally..

My alters are my family. I have kids etc. I lose time during stress only. I don't know all of gjem what they look like. I don't want them to go away.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Vanny100

Oh. See, I've never actually talked to a doctor about it... Like I said, I'm too scared... I want to live a normal life and graduate from college and get married and have a normal job... I don't want that stigma of being unstable or something...

vanny100 your profile says you live in Texas. well since you are here in america that means you can go to college, get married, have a job and live a normal life if you want to.

you see there are laws that say employers, schools/colleges and such can not prevent you from doing these things because of having a mental problem. no one else needs to know you have a mental disorder unless .......you....... decide to tell them. whether someone other than your doctors know you have a mental disorder is a personal choice. some people decide to tell people outside their therapy and medical doctors and others dont. its all up to you.

[Vanny100]

Originally Posted by likewater

My alters are my family. I have kids etc. I lose time during stress only. I don't know all of gjem what they look like. I don't want them to go away.

One of my alters I think is based off a child that miscarried. She calls me mom.. It sounds crazy I know, but I can't help but love them all. And same here about only losing time when I'm stressed. Thanks so much for replying!

[Fuzzybear]