[FightingMyself]

I am losing the battle with her.

It's been 2 months and she hasn't bothered me.

Now all I want to do is reach out to Matt, my former lover. We are both married, I know it's wrong. She keeps telling me it will be okay, that no one will find out. I know better, but I feel my internal fortitude waning.

Her fingers are creeping up out of the abyss and putting thoughts into my head that I just don't want to have. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stop it. I have almost given in several times today alone.

Every moment of free thought is a battle and I am losing it.

I go to the doctor Friday, thankfully. I hope I can hold her off until then.

Any advice is appreciated.

[Jamles]

I would call my doctor right now since you are having a real hard time right now to see if they can get you any sooner. Please hold on.

[FightingMyself]

Originally Posted by Jamles

I would call my doctor right now since you are having a real hard time right now to see if they can get you any sooner. Please hold on.

I called him two weeks ago when the medicine I am on stopped working. They weren't able to get me in any sooner. I was going to go to urgent care, but my husband wasn't on board with that. It's like feeling further and further away.

I just wish someone would shake me and say "NO!" and tell me how badly it would end up.

The doubts are creeping. The grass may be greener.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by FightingMyself

I am losing the battle with her.

It's been 2 months and she hasn't bothered me.

Now all I want to do is reach out to Matt, my former lover. We are both married, I know it's wrong. She keeps telling me it will be okay, that no one will find out. I know better, but I feel my internal fortitude waning.

Her fingers are creeping up out of the abyss and putting thoughts into my head that I just don't want to have. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stop it. I have almost given in several times today alone.

Every moment of free thought is a battle and I am losing it.

I go to the doctor Friday, thankfully. I hope I can hold her off until then.

Any advice is appreciated.

I have had thoughts that if I acted on them it would hurt us. I found that if I ask the part that is having the thought why they want to do a specific thing and if they think that thing is in all of our best interest. Sometimes the part that wants to do something isn't thinking it all the way through. The questions give the part the time to think about it. Hope you feel better soon.

[Big Moma]

A small insignificant fling , Is not worth losing your marriage over another. Your whole life
could fall apart. Do something with your wife , new and exciting. Try something simple
go see a dinner play. Or out to the good romantic movie. Have fun and try to spark up
something new with your now wife. God will bless you for it. Buy her a gift and let emotions grow and get in the way. Cherish everything good that is long lasting , permanent and eternal. I am not an expert., but I will pray for you and God will
have his way. Take care of you and love and bless you and your family.

Don't give up on yourself. God is good.

[toshia123110]

I struggle with this exact thing so if you need someone you can look me up on here. It's not easy but try to remember he's an ex for a reason. Don't look at all the good feelings try to remember the bad ones!