Why do I switch

Today in session I was having a simple conversation with my t. Everything was "normal". Than my t asked me how I have been doing. I started to talk about having feelings of fear. I was explaining these feelings and than I switched to a part that only talks out loud in session. He started to talk about what we experience when trying to find a job. How we are afraid to take on too much responsibility where we would need to talk to people. I switched when I don't think I needed to. It was than very difficult for me to move. I had to have someone help me. T mentioned we switched and that upset me. She could see me. Why would I switch because I was just talking about a feeling. Uggggg I can't even explain myself.

Sometimes I get this too. We seem to switch without there even being a trigger, almost as though everyone is wanting to come out no matter what is happening at the time if that makes sense? I have no control over this and it scares me so much. I just want to run away and for it all to end. And reading on here what was happening yesterday afternoon is so terrifying, from last night (Monday night) I remembered nothing at all since Saturday night.. thats like 48hrs of lost time of just a blank, nothingness sorry for hijacking your thread claritytoo

You were getting too close to an unsafe topic. You needed protection. Unfortunately you cant choose when the driver switches. Wish wish wish it was different. We think you are incredibly brave in even going outside let alone speaking to someone about the others.

Its sad that reading there is someone else saying almost exactly what we are going thru & feeling not quite so much a freak as usual. Sorry not saying this in a mean way. Just what u say is so close. We cant run away. Cant kick anyone out either. Even if they are scary. We are all trapped in here together.
Dont feel bad about hijacking. It will happen. Some of you will get use to it. Coming to PC helps. The support given here keeps the light on. Just keep reaching out. We find if we do nothing loosing time happens more often. Hang in there...everyone, peace.

I switch at nothing, no rhyme or reason, no trigger, just because. At least, none that I'm aware of. My T says my irl kids can be triggers, which i guess is probably right. N conversations. But to me it just feels like swapparoo. Im lucky after so much therapy that i dont loose much time anymore n we have a good amount of coconsciousness. But that has been a long road. Anyway, just didnt want you to feel alone. Tc.

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You didn't hijack the thread. I appreciate your trying to help me to understand. It makes me feel unsafe to just switch without a reason I understand. I hope you have a better night tonight. Take care.