Venting

So, we are DEFINITELY done!
I got a voice message from a patient at the hospital, it was meant for her.
Not going into detail.
But there is no way of getting back our old life.
I need to get my own place.
But have to stay here until I get one

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Hi Stephen, Dont really know your whole situation. Just by reading things here.My daughter just got out of hospital. She was saying some nasty things to me too. The medicine and the illness is making her act that way.She needs some happy meds. She may need something different. My daughter is home now. Feeling pretty crappy from meds. Your girlfiend has been hospitalized for a long time. Must be very hard. Getting her meds right will be very important and therapy. Sorry for your pain. Everyday my daughter was in the hospital I brought her magazines and newspapers and books. Stay strong.

I tried to bring her things, restricted my access.
Wouldn't let me talk to the ward.
But there is no going back after this voice message.
He was graphic in the things they tried.
The message

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Was not meant for me

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Sorry Stephen, I dont know your details. Probably get on with your life like you said. Good luck with everything. Nothing happens overnight. One day at a time. My daughter is sleeping took her to another blood test for endocrine to have everything checked out. She has PCOS trying to get that leveled out. Have you had a Physical with everything checked out endocrine system also? keep talking to people here also. They have good advice. My daughter has lost a lot of weight. Giving her protein shakes. Slowly back on her feet. good luck to you

I'm devastated!!
I'm broken!!
I just broke down on the phone to her mum.
I can't sleep in this house.
I'm going to end up in hospital
I want my rebecca back, but that's all ruined now.
And she doesn't even know what she's doing to me.
I hate this evil person she is.
She is going to be horrified when she is better, and won't even know why I left.
It's not even her fault!


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Had an unbroken sleep last night. 13 hours!!
Woke up, started doing the housework.
Playing some xbox
I disconnected the house phone.
Blocked my Facebook.
Dealing positive

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I'm glad you got some good sleep. Staying positive sounds like a good way to go. Hope you can find a place to be.

An awesome day at work!
Got some advice from my OT,
For getting my own house quicker.
Had no abusive messages.
Got the hospital on Wednesday, still anxious about bumping into Rebecca.
But apart from that.
I feel good

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Excellent news that you are having a good day. Getting your own place to stay would be great and give you more stability and a secure base. Huzzar.

In also thinking, if she changes her mind when she is well, I might give try taking things slowly.
At the end of the day, it's not her fault.
And if all the horrible stuff she has done is all made up,
I have to give Rebecca and I another try.
But as for now, that person in hospital, is not my girlfriend and I have to make plans for my future.

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Now she's taken to harassing my friends.
I have told them to ignore her, or block her.
Luckily, they know me better, and are not believing what she's saying.
She's not making it easy for me (=))
Had quite a rough day, worrying about her.
But, she has helped put my mind at ease.



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AWESOME DAY!!
Had a bit of a grumpy tantrum when my alarm went off for work.
But was in a good mood all day.
I was a bit worried about my appointment, but my dr is ill, so it got cancelled.
But, apart from that, very good day

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Stressful couple of days.
She's getting a weekend pass, to spend time with our son.
She's staying at her mums, (house arrest style)
Our dr has said we need to stay away from each other.
That's good!
But she'll he staying right next door!
Not good!
My dr had said if I need to I can go to the hospital.
But I want to avoid that, at all costs!!
Fighting the urge to remove digits.

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Hey sweety, follow the doctor rules to survive. He's been dealing with the situation so he knows. Give her space to come back. Best of luck!

I plan on following drs orders,
Worried she won't.
Her mum said they she's not giving her an inch!
It's a supervised visit, if she tries leave or contact me, her mums phoning the hospital.
Her mum has been a huge support to me.
I am getting her a gift.

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Is there some-one else you could visit for when she is at her Mum's? It all sounds very complicated. Have you continued at looking for another place to live? My thoughts are with you.

I have a social worker coming out on Friday to help fill in the form, it wouldn't accept some details, so keep getting frustrated with it.
I tried to stay at my mums, but I couldn't get settled, my nephew wanted to sleep next to me, and he kept jumping on me
So went back to the house, got to sleep after 01:00.


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Bed bugs........... Very hard to sleep with.

Hope the social worker can get things on track for a new place. That will be a very good move forward.

She's going back to hospital today, so hopefully I will be able to settle.
Bumped into her a couple of times, I didn't feel anything at all when I saw her.
Don't know if that's a good thing.
I hope she still lets me see Connor, he calls me dad, so I don't think she would keep him from seeing me.
I'm going to do my fork lift certificates.
Try to get a new job before I get a house.
Going to turkey next week (=))
I can't wait!! (=)) (=)) (=))


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As my forfeit for not being able to stop smoking, I had to wear a dress to work =) I'll get pics soon =(

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Sounds like there are some good things ahead for you a trip OS and a new job and a new place to live.

PS. If it's good enough for Jadyn Smith to wear a dress in public then it's good enough for you.

Had an appointment with my dr.
There was a student Dr there, so I didn't feel comfortable getting everything out,
And he was asking all the safe boring questions I'm sick of answering.
Then when I was leaving, I saw Rebecca, it has seriously confused me.
I thought I was over her, and I was determined I was leaving, and getting on with life.
But then I saw her, for 4-5 seconds!
And now I'm not so sure.
I texted her when I got back home.
She's still delusional, and unwell.
I don't know how it makes me feel, knowing she's still convinced I am the bad guy,
It has me confused.
Been told to keep a mood diary,
Since I've started this, and I've updated every day, I will just use this.
Can I print this out for appointments?



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I tend to go blank at appointments, so I keep everything I want to say in a notebook.