Venting

My first day back to work was good! A warm welcome from my best friend, she is making a photo album for me.
Haven't heard from Rebecca, her mum says there is a big difference, but still quite irrational, but I am looking to the future, forklift training, my own house, focus on Connor and my nephew, and niece!! Not sure if I've mentioned the new addition to our family, she's 6 weeks old, so I must have at some point.
Already got my living room planned, kitchen. Bedroom, I'm not sure.
I'll make it plain and boring, so I don't want to be spending time in there.
But my living room will be awesome!


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Just when I think things are getting better!!
Got needle stick yesterday, spent all day in hospital to get blood taken, hep vaccine, and for the year! More blood test and 3 more doses of hep vaccine!
Whoo f**king hoo!!!
Good news is, the possibility of catching anything is very minimal. It's just an inconvenience.


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I knew this would come in handy (=))
I got my disability allowance papers through, asking lots of questions about my daily experiences

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Hello!!
Not much to report, life is boring which is a lot better than it has been ️️
Just working, and waiting to hear about a house.
Not much else to say.
I may need to print this out, I might have an appointment with disability payments.
Need to keep a diary, this should be ok though.

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It is good to know that life is calm. Enjoy.

Didn't think anyone was still reading this
Looking forward to getting my own house!!!

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I like to check in and see how you are going.

Having your own place to live will be wonderful.

Thank you, that means a lot!!


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Hi Stephen,
Hope you and your girlfriend are okay now...Let us hear from you...

I have an update.
I handed in my notice at work,
Using my last wage to do my forklift test.
Then only thing to worry about is my house!!


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I'm not sure how Rebecca is, we haven't spoke in awhile, I'm collecting my things on Sunday.
I had hoped she would figure everything out in her head, but she is still blaming me for everything that has happened.
But to be honest, I'm doing a heck of a lot better!!
Everything's seems to be falling into place, and I am hopeful for the future

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Hello, not much to report.
I officially left my job on Friday.
I'm booking my course on Monday.
Still waiting to hear about a house.
I am a lot more stable.
I keep forgetting to take my morning meds.


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Sounds like life is moving forward for you.

Can you put your meds in a prominent position so they are harder to forget. Or maybe even have an alarm on your phone that goes off to remind you. Take Care and good luck.

To be honest, I'm feeling like I don't need them. I'll keep taking them until I can see my dr.
But things are going a little to well.
I'm keeping as positive as possible.
I've been thinking about the break up, I can't believe she still thinks I tried to hit her!
I think there's something else going on.

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Hello!!
I went to talk to Rebecca today,
It went really well!
I don't want to get back with her, I just want to go back to being friends, she says the same. We have been in each other's lives for 9 years.
It would be a shame to throw all of that away.


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Sometimes it's better this way. Sometimes being a couple isn't good for the mental health of all involved. I hope y'all find your happiness.

I think we will.
No matter what, we are good for each other. We were friends for 7 years.
It would be a shame to lose that friendship.

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She's focusing on psychotherapy,
And I'm going to ask for psychology.
I'm at that point, the meds are ok, but I want to get to the bottom of my issues.

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I'm struggling today.
I haven't stopped thinking about Rebecca, I miss dancing with her and joking around.
Generally being in her company.
And Connor started the academy today, maybe worrying about him triggered it.

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We are giving it another go.
We aren't rushing into anything!
She is finishing therapy,
And sorting everything out
I'm focused on finding a new job, and getting a house.
We are friends at the moment, But we are determined to try again when we are both back on track
She keeps saying sorry for everything, I keep telling her there's no need to apologise,
It wasn't her.
But, I understand her news to say sorry



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Yay for you sweety! I hope it all ges well for yall and that y'all respect each other spaces!

We've been watching films the last few nights.
Everything is good.

I forget people are reading this.
Thank you all for your support!


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Well uh duh! This is like online!

I know =)
I think of this as my mood diary.
Never imagined anyone would still be reading it. =)
I have read it all, what a messed up couple of months!
But I have learned, that no matter how hard everything gets! It ALWAYS get better!
Ok, I'm staying with my parents.
But, I'm now a trained forklift operator, I have my friend back!
And I'm not working in that kitchen!!
I am very hopeful for the future. =)

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