[Ganganthefatman]

And just get life over with. I'm heavily buzzed and depressed.

There's a lot on my mind right now, and despite what any of you say, there is absolutely no one to talk to. The conversation would consist of me opening up to you with mountains of paragraphs, and all you would say is "Aww I'm so sorry you went through that blah blah *insert cliche as f--- advice.*

I'm just venting about how I feel. I will never be able to get the proper help I need. F--- everyone and everything. I'm a lost cause.

[Ganganthefatman]

F---. I posted this in the wrong section. I'm such a miserable f--- up.

Hey Hun, I can feel for you because I do too at times. Right now, I can't be one person as much as I try. The others keep taking over.

So, what are you drinking? I'm slamming beers like I do every night trying to forget that I'm alive, waking up in the morning can be such a drag, but I do it anyways. luv.

[Ganganthefatman]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Hey Hun, I can feel for you because I do too at times. Right now, I can't be one person as much as I try. The others keep taking over.

So, what are you drinking? I'm slamming beers like I do every night trying to forget that I'm alive, waking up in the morning can be such a drag, but I do it anyways. luv.

What do you mean by that? Like, you have multi personality disorder (I know it's not called that now, DID I think?)?

I forgot the name of it. I'm 18 so I can't just go out and get what I want, unfortunately. I just drink whatever my mom has. I'm not a light weight, unfortunately, so trying to get drunk has been a bit of a chore. But fortunately, I managed to get heavily buzzed today. It felt good. I only feel like s--- for it because my mom's an alcoholic, and I never want/wanted to be like her. Drinking and smoking is such a nice "waiting game" for when I'm able to

Possible trigger:

finally cut myself again.

Sorry for that. If you don't mind me asking; what drink currently has your attention?

When I hit the liquor, it's never good. I just drink beer, lots of beer!

I only SH when I'm triggered, got an alter for that, but that's how it is.

Yes I am a multiple and there are others, but we generally try to be okay.

I've been through all that. It's just a pause button. I've paused till I was 35.

I so wish that I can so like start over knowing what I know now. It would be different. I was intoxicated from 18-35, then I kinda almost grew up to discover that life is kinda like almost over. So sad.

We live for ourselves not others. Once you get out and about, you'll realize that it's all about you. If you do well, others do well, life goes well. It's up to you.

I've finally figured that out. The body is 47.

[Ganganthefatman]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

When I hit the liquor, it's never good. I just drink beer, lots of beer!

I only SH when I'm triggered, got an alter for that, but that's how it is.

Yes I am a multiple and there are others, but we generally try to be okay.

I've been through all that. It's just a pause button. I've paused till I was 35.

I so wish that I can so like start over knowing what I know now. It would be different. I was intoxicated from 18-35, then I kinda almost grew up to discover that life is kinda like almost over. So sad.

We live for ourselves not others. Once you get out and about, you'll realize that it's all about you. If you do well, others do well, life goes well. It's up to you.

I've finally figured that out. The body is 47.

What kind of beer do you drink, and how much of it does it take for you to get drunk?

You don't have to answer if it's too personal, but how many alters do you have?

There's a couple things I deeply regret, but I try not to.

My self medication allows me to do well.

**** sweety, I'm on number 20 - 12 oz.

I've got tons of alters, like one for every moment, if that makes sense. I'm blessed that way

OMG, we just made an inbody pack that got destroyed in 2 seconds! Lol

Damn drunk alters lololol

Nite nite.

[Ganganthefatman]

What are the alters like? Is there like, ever two that are alike?

I hope that your feeling better today. We've got twins, Bobbie and Barbie. Other than that, everyone else is different because they have their own job to do. It's the only way our system can function.

[Ganganthefatman]

Ehh. I don't know if I'll ever be able to feel better, but thanks for the hope.

Whats it like when one of them takes over the body?

I'm sorry, an other took over for a few days. We switch seamlessly, it's a trigger thing. Sometimes it feels like being possessed, like putting on a body. You flex the fingers and toes and try the arms and legs, stretch to get a feel for it. Then the mental thoughts and head voice changes, and most memories of the previous occupant fades away.

I hope that helps.

[Ganganthefatman]

It's all good.

Do you ever know which one takes over? Do you have a favorite, or one you feel closer to?

I don't know how to answer that because when I'm here, I'm here!

My favorite is me!

[Ganganthefatman]

You don't ever converse with any of them? If not, I'd take it that's a good thing.

Sure, I bet they tell you the same thing.

I'm cooking dinner, drinking a few beers, doing laundry, loving on the doggy, might sweep the floors, and watching the news. What more can a girl want?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Ganganthefatman

It's all good.

Do you ever know which one takes over? Do you have a favorite, or one you feel closer to?

I'm sorry hun, DID..or I don't work that way. We have others, but they do their own thing. What it is, I kinda know but dont really know.

This isn't anything like picking your favorite color of chewing gum.

I'm only out when I'm home tied. I can't imagine knowing what everyone does. Your question is perplexing and doesn't make sense to me. Sorry Hun.