[CalmingOcean]

Long term rape by my brothe

Go!

Child abuse
Neglect
Too many rapes to count
Emotional abuse
Car accident

[CalmingOcean]

Yikes sorry. I was also the victim of emotional abuse and neglect... Probably what lead to the rape which lead to my brother... I get it. I had a car accident too. Or sort of. A friend of mine was run over... And I froze because she was screaming and that was suppose to be me sitting behind that desk I was late to replace you for your break... I was late and you fought for your life and I wouldn't of I would of given up I was ready to give up back then

[Kiya]

first 12 years of sex abuse; ongoing physical, mental, emotional abuse, abusive bf in high school...

Possible trigger:

molestation by mom and paternal grandma from birth to 3,
hospitalization for illness at 3
death of beloved grandmother at 3
at 4, social worker taught mom to restrain me against a wall until I told her she's the boss - took hours; no food, water, potty, anything until I said that. messed up boundaries totally.
traumatic move from city to desert (isolation) at 5
ongoing incestual rape from early age - 11 by dad
molestation by a gang of boys, and by a neighbor's dad sometime between 8-10
drugged rape of self and friends by neighbor at 12
constant domestic violence by all family members - physical fights
years of manipulation, emotional torment, degradation by family
a year of sexual, mental, emotional, and physical abuse by bf.

you know... typical life.

[CalmingOcean]

Originally Posted by Kiya

first 12 years of sex abuse; ongoing physical, mental, emotional abuse, abusive bf in high school...

Possible trigger:

molestation by mom and paternal grandma from birth to 3,
hospitalization for illness at 3
death of beloved grandmother at 3
traumatic move from city to desert (isolation) at 5
ongoing incestual rape from early age - 11 by dad
molestation by a gang of boys, and by a neighbor's dad sometime between 8-10
drugged rape of self and friends by neighbor at 12
constant domestic violence by all family members - physical fights
years of manipulation, emotional torment, degradation by family
a year of sexual, mental, emotional, and physical abuse by bf.

you know... typical life.

Okay yes, typical life.

My mum and I were physically abused by my biological father- until I was about 3.

Mum re-married, and turned the physical abuse and emotional abuse on me from the age of 4 or 5 through to 17.

18-21. It stopped being physical,. but the emptional abuse stepped up a notch...

You ladies have been through so, so, so much. It's heart-breaking to know that people can hurt children, their own family, and their own flesh and blood to such as extent.

I commmend your strength, and your bravery, and that of your alters, who have stood by you to help you through.

We wish you the best of luck with your journey to recovery.

I'm the product of emotional, mental and physical abuse. I was getting whippings as soon as I learned to walk because I was a "naughty" baby and always "getting into things"- like what a baby does.

Others kept getting us in trouble. Always getting screamed at and beatings by both parents and told it's because "they love me" by mom. Huh? My father hated me, never told me that he loved me. I was ignored until he got pissed off drunk. All I remember is a scowl on his face.

Always called "stupid" and told "won't you ever learn?", I had a "bad memory" then, too. I'd get "disciplined" over something that I did, switch, and do something else to get "disciplined" for. Sure I deserved disciplines, but to the extreme I had to endure was ludicrous.

My parents were bullies, especially my father who ruled by an iron fist for 18 years till I escaped away. I do remember trying to crawl away and bouncing off of walls, both when a teen and a kid.

I was a shell of a person, withdrawn and scared of life that lasted till I was about 25 where years of getting liquored and drugged up helped pull me out of my shell. I had no people skills, so I also got picked on and bullied at school, too.

I had no safe place but inside and in books.

We all stayed hidden out of fear. Everyone got a taste of it.

[Luce]

being raised by a family in which multi-generational abuse was the norm

[Kiya]

((((((( hugs to everyone )))))))

[IB splitting]

So 9 months old mom tried to kill me via: pillow. Stopped breathing hospital then years of senseless beatings emotional physical abuse neglect and sexual abuse by father sexual sadist. Other than that I'm a perfectly normal. 16+ alters ptsd. Anxiety disorder.

I guess in short, they did.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I'm the product of emotional, mental and physical abuse. I was getting whippings as soon as I learned to walk because I was a "naughty" baby and always "getting into things"- like what a baby does.

Others kept getting us in trouble. Always getting screamed at and beatings by both parents and told it's because "they love me" by mom. Huh? My father hated me, never told me that he loved me. I was ignored until he got pissed off drunk. All I remember is a scowl on his face.

Always called "stupid" and told "won't you ever learn?", I had a "bad memory" then, too. I'd get "disciplined" over something that I did, switch, and do something else to get "disciplined" for. Sure I deserved disciplines, but to the extreme I had to endure was ludicrous.

My parents were bullies, especially my father who ruled by an iron fist for 18 years till I escaped away. I do remember trying to crawl away and bouncing off of walls, both when a teen and a kid.

I was a shell of a person, withdrawn and scared of life that lasted till I was about 25 where years of getting liquored and drugged up helped pull me out of my shell. I had no people skills, so I also got picked on and bullied at school, too.

I had no safe place but inside and in books.

We all stayed hidden out of fear. Everyone got a taste of it.

We're so, so sorry for everything you went through.

Like you all, our mother beat us all in the name of discipline. True, discilpine is required with a child but there's a thick line between discipline and beating senseless. Our mother crossed it everyday. Our step father never knew what we went through. We were made to face our face and smile before he got home from work at 17:00. Oh, how we waited for that time to come everyday.

....

The part that hurts us most is the way mum treated Lexa's sister. At our age, the sister was naughty too,but she got a lecture and that's it. Once she got a slap, and that had her howling. We wonder if she would have survived what we went through. We doubt it.

(hugs).

Regards,
Isabelle.

[finding_my_way]

my story is a bit different but still was a lot of trauma. i was born very early, so i believe from the trauma of that, daily medical stuff (often painful), etc. was probably where things started for me just to keep me alive. i was not expected to live and beat the odds twice in my first year of life with medical stuff.

i experienced s*xual abuse starting probably around five (a man lived in our basement for a few months who i have little memory of but apparently spent a lot of time with me who i have two or so partial memories of) on and off up to about 10 or so (possibly a r*pe by a cousin when i was 7 or 8, but i am unsure if that did happen or not as i have bits and pieces of that particular memory).

my s*xual abuse was also by kids around my same age or just a few years older (one was a friend's stepbrother one time, but i do not know what he did as again i just have bits and pieces of that one too). some was normal and not harmful to me emotionally, etc., but some was not.

i also spent from about 6 to 11 years old in a chaotic home filled with anger and family violence (never towards me), but i witnessed a lot of things (also things i don't have memory of but was told i was there for). it caused a lot of terror in me of being killed as we had to escape my first stepdad several times...and that fear has never really left me.

i also experienced emotional neglect from my real father for many years as well as feared him due to anger outbursts (never physical) and more directed at other people..but he was also very critical of me. thankfully, he has changed so much, and i am actually proud to call him my dad now.

and then there was also just the verbal and psychological stuff mixed in throughout childhood as well from various sources.

SRA
please google if unsure of its meaning ♥

[IB splitting]

So just learned one of my alters is an infant, as that's when my trauma began. Not sure how I feel about that . But Lacy (The Boss) said he is fine and just needs love and comfort .
Why do I feel so sad now, no no want cry mayb

Awww, that's all he needs. Poor baby, he's been through so much, just love him.

[Kiya]

yeah, forgot the SRA and a few others in my original list... some alters know more than others....

((((all))))

[Caelix3]

Currently undiagnosed but feel like I have some type of dissociative disorder.

Caused by: My older sister having really bad mood swings when she was 16, I would kind of provoke her but come on I was only 5. She would grab me tightly and shake me, yell at me in my face. Grab a pillow or something and throw it at me angrily or hit me with it. One time going as far as to shove me against the fridge causing me to bruise my knee. This cycle did not stop until she hit 18, no matter what my parents said or did.

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My father did something with a thermometer when I was 5, and I heard a voice that said, "Oooh, I like that". She became a very sexually orientated part which split into a twin which has dominated our sex life.

[CalmingOcean]

Sorry everybody this is a horrible thread

Most of us in this system has come to terms with what has happened. I can remember some of it and not be emotionally affected, like it happened to someone else. Others, not so much.

An other tried telling our son about our childhood and had a break down crying fit.

This is actually quite interesting to read about other system experiences.

[Sarah Bee]

Neglect, physical and emotional abuse from Mother (started before I can remember - age 31 - the emotional abuse continued until this year)
Sexual abuse from Father (6-18)
Sexual abuse from Grandfather (5-14)
Sexual abuse from a friend (4-13)
Sexual, emotional, psychological, financial and physical abuse by a boyfriend - caused further splitting (18-21)

I don't know when all this started by my mother or even by my father. I only remember being scared of the grandfather. I feel like they were always like that. I don't have all the memories yet.

[Willowtrees]

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[IB splitting]

Remember walking home from school oh no, curtains closed that meant the beatings will begin. Don't want to go home no no, not home I'm away far far away in my safe zone.
I can hear yelling, screaming, feel pain I think is h..ll
Pain crying, bleeding, relief in trails of blood
Yes, feels better feel nothing
Bleeding is tears of my body
Will feel better in a few minutes after sting go away
Please don't judge me, I know is wrong
No more hurt, no more self injure
Close eyes see red
Why you shaking arm till bleed
Well, alone again it's dArk, naked, on floor, bleeding
Won't someone help me, hello little pain here
Well, alone again no one came oh well so be it.
Sorry was having flash back.