DID is taking over my life! Please help.

Hi everyone, My DID is getting out of control. New personalities are popping up every few weeks now for several months. Here are the personalities that I have: A bird who believes who can fly, A 2 year old girl who can barely talk, someone who is confused and talks like this "You know the fact is and I don't know why the who is computer and the cow mooed", A super smart 5 year old girl, An alien from Mars who speaks and writes in a different language, a robot, a 50 year old man who loves Bush, an 87 year old woman, someone who doesn't know her name and believes she is being controlled and sometimes is stuck and can't move, and a terrorist who wants to take over the world. I am having all their thoughts in my head and can't think straight at times. I am me right now and that is the only reason why I'm able to type this. I have conversations in my head and I am able to communicate to some of the personalities. I do not actually hear them like in schizophrenia, but their thoughts sometimes are annoying. I believe that this is punishment by the government to me because of what I've done. I mentioned it many times already on this site. I killed 350,000 people with my dreams and influenced events around the world. Then I went to the hospital and I believe that they implanted a chip in me to control the personalities. The CIA or FBI is doing this for entertainment. I want to know, can you communicate to your personalities? How do you deal with their thoughts? I am also getting depressed because of the new personalities because I can't go back to school or get a job. Say you're taking a test and the alien or the 2 year old pops out and either writes in a different language or is not able to read and understand any of the college questions. Even though I am able to communicate to the personalities, I told them not to come out anymore they still come out constantly throughout the day. Yesterday I missed 90% of the day because of the personalities. How do you tell them to go away? How do you control it? I'm scared that the next personality is going to be a baby who crawls on the ground and is unable to walk or talk and needs a diaper. Do you have a personality like that? How long does therapy take to control DID?

Hi FireBird,

Have you been diagnosed with DID by a psychiatrist since the last time you posted this? She/he should be able to help you out with some of your questions. They may also be able to prescribe some meds that will help you with your depression.

If you haven't seen one, then I think you might want to start there.

Do you have a therapist? What does he/she say?

You might want to read up a bit on schizophrenia as it sounds more familiar to what you are describing.

However, we are not experts and only a professional can answer these questions for you.

Take care,

Petunia

Ooops, sorry.

I just saw your post in Personality Disorders.

I guess you do have a P-doc.

I think I would trust what they had to say.

Keep us posted.

Petunia, DID and schizophrenia are two completely different things. Schizophrenia deals with hearing voices, which I don't do and having delusions which I don't have. DID is when you have more than one personality which I do have. And yes, I am seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist and someone who does EMDR. My psychologist says that it is DID and she said it takes 3-5 years to treat. I want to know other people's experiences in how long it takes and how they communicate to the personalities. Also, I am on meds for the depression and they are working but my depression is getting bad again even on the pills due to the fact that my DID is out of control and I can't go to school or work, and my mom is in a lot of pain. If I didn't have pills for the depression, I would be a lot worse now.

Yes Firebird. Thank you for explaining. I am very aware of the difference.

I guess I was just confused because I read that your psychiatrist DX'ed you schizoaffective, but you didn't believe him.

I didn't know you were DID and I admit I was confused because this does not sound like DID, but I am no expert and everyone's experience is different.

Your thread

I'm sorry to hear that you're having a tough time with the depression. You might wan't to put a call in to your psychiatrist. Maybe meds need to be adjusted?

There's lots of good reading in this forum. Many different experiences that might answer some of you questions and will definetly offer some help as far as communicating with your personalities. (At least until some others respond)

Hope things settle down for you soon.

Hang in there and keep posting.

Take care,

Petunia