I feel like a go pro attached to a kite, attached by the thinnest of threads to the body walking along so far below. I can see what I do, who I interact with, where I am- but I'm barely connected. I'm not participating, just able to watch with as little influence over him as he has over me. I'm just here to be buffeted by the wind with no control, no direction other than where the wind takes me. I'm so lost right now.

Originally Posted by CassyO

I feel like a go pro attached to a kite, attached by the thinnest of threads to the body walking along so far below. I can see what I do, who I interact with, where I am- but I'm barely connected. I'm not participating, just able to watch with as little influence over him as he has over me. I'm just here to be buffeted by the wind with no control, no direction other than where the wind takes me. I'm so lost right now.

Shelly:

I'm so sorry that you feel that way.

I see that you can type, feel free to keep typing. Do you have any grounding techniques? Can you push forward and take over?

I seldom get that far out, but I only do under really major stress.... Like the end of the world stress.

I can also step back as an observer as an other operates the body. It's like being a puppet. I can still feel, but the body moves on its own and does its own thing. It's actually quite entertaining to watch, but that's just the way I am.

You are you regardless of how many occupants there are in head. Are you able to communicate with him? Leave him notes?

I'm me, and I've a job to do, although I do more than just my job. The others do what they do, I do what I do. It's just the way it is.

I hope that you all get to feeling better hon.

Hey Shelly - thank you lots for replying

Ive been at work all day, and to be honest, Im not really sure why I posted this. I mean - I know its what I was thinking, and I remember thinking it was really important i wrote that down somewhere. But I don't know why, and i don't think like that now

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Can you push forward and take over?

I don't know how to do that. I don't think any of me knows how to do that! Im not like everyone else on these boards. I'm pretty confident Im DID or DIDish - but I don't know who is in there. I recently gave up weed and its all gone a bit nutty since. I guess I used it to dampen everything, and now it aint dampened things have gone a bit haywire.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Like the end of the world stress.

Thats kind of where Im at - only any emotions are totally muted so it doesn't actually feel that bad!

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Are you able to communicate with him? Leave him notes?

I don't even know if I have a him! I mean, I do - but this was different. This wasn't the him Im used to. If he is there he is new to me - But maybe it was more of a day dream? An analogy? Im really not sure what any of that first post was about

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I hope that you all get to feeling better hon.

THANK YOU