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I have been trying to go back to work for about a year. I have gotten a seasonal job over the past summer and was able to make it almost to the end. Since than I have had four jobs and have not been able to keep any of them. One I flipped out over something that was said and left. The next I had such high blood pressure because of stress I ended up with a stroke. I thank got another job working for a company I had worked for before. I knew the work but for some reason I could translate it into practical application. I left before I was fired. I than got another job making more money, went through orientation than had a major freak out and panic attack and called and told them I was unable to work because of my health. I need to work and am going to try to get a job again. I have been trying to get everyone to just calm down and enable us to work. Nothing has been working. I am going to try to work maybe this summer but in the mean time I am eating a lot of bread and water. And the stress of no money is just compounding my desire to withdraw. It feels like the wheels have come off and we are stuck. I am moving in order to lower my housing costs hoping that will give us some breathing room. I am just finding a hard time getting back into the structure that allows us to work.

Hello. You are in a tough spot and all I can do is tell you to hang in there and take it one step at a time. It is really hard being poor and trying to find a job and then being able to do what is necessary to keep it. It takes a lot of courage and will power and hopefull one day at a time and you will be strong enough to give it another shot. In the meantime, take care and keep sharing. You have already shown incredible strength in trying again and again. Keep doing that. I really think you are stronger than you realzie. hugs