Trying to stay trigger free

I learned this long ago when a teen and have forgotten this technique, but I try to stay calm, unemotional, ever present to control any accidental switching. Of course I come across as a robot at times, but hey- it's better then being irrational.

If I stay calm and collected and uninvolved or vested, I don't get that rustling gut feeling. To get over come by an emotion or over reacting causes changes, so working at being the same at all times, I then can control myself. Much like practicing yoga for Zen.

Even though I stay like this, it seems that I lack personality, emotion, fun, just incomplete...but stabile.

Will this work in this day and age? I don't know, but being tired and having a stubborn head cold has helped.

I swear being hung over and depressed keeps the Others surpressed- hence the heavy drinking.

This is a technique to consciously re-employ. Its bad that we have to struggle with life- but to be fighting ourselves, too? Unfair. Whatever. Peace out.

Well, I don't show my emotions and always it's been harder for me than for other people when it came to socializing or such. It's hard especially when people think you're female and they have all the bunch of **** stereotypes. I don't know where does the path leads. How long do you live like this?

I still have no idea what my triggers are. I feel like a newborn baby with my feelings. My whole life I've just hid away from my past, my feelings, my setbacks. I hide behind a facade of personality traits I've stolen from others who I consider "Healthy".

When I lose my cool that's when I have my amnesia, potentially hurt myself, and end up in a hospital.

I am finally seeking help but it feels like I've spent too long burying it that it's all erupting now and I'm going down hard.

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I try to stay focused and grit my teeth when I can feel an Other coming on and resist.

Nobody likes me here at work because of all this. I can feel an end to my work career coming on because I can't stand dealing with the looks, head turns, the ignorance, their status quo, the jokes and hateful stares.

I'm not a happy person. I'm never a happy person.

It's been 7 months. The last job lasted 1 year.

i never commented on this before, but really want to

staying trigger free is so hard.. especially for us when almost every word on the planet is linked to something horrible or triggers bad emotions

and names of people especially, we find it difficult to stay calm when certain names get mentioned