[Lilah]

Sometimes, when I get really depressed and usually its more of an angry 'i want to hurt myself' depressed my mind goes into this state and I think Im someone else. Im fully aware of who 'Lilah' is but Violet (who 'takes over') just completely rules my mind. There are a few people like this and I associate them with colors.

Actually Lilah is not my real name. Lilah is one of these feelings/people.

Last night, I was feeling very worried and sad and thinking a lot about my hospitalization so I began talking to Rosabelle in my head, I could see her in the back of my mind and the color brown was surronding her. I talked to all of these people: Violet (purple), Lilah (yellow), Rosabelle (brown), Charlie (who is a girl) (blue), Scarlett (red)

And when Id be talking to one of these people I could tell who they were because of the color that I could see. But in the back of my mind I could tell if the others were talking to each other (like at one point yellow (Lilah) and purple (Violet) mixed together.

I know this may sound strange but does anyone know what this is? I can talk to people in my mind but sometimes they take over my own mind... I dont know

Help?

[Perna]

I lived in a fantasy world with other people for 10+ years. I started therapy because I tried to "get rid of" these other people but could not, it was seriously upsetting me and I realized that that was not right.

I think if I had to do the first half of my life over again I'd spend more time talking to other people; good people, "bad" people, teachers, friends, therapist (especially) etc. I'd find ways to not spend so much time just by myself in my own head.

I've done colors too; my theapist was a lovely, soothing blue/green color. I preferred yellow and orange for myself when I was an older teenager but then liked browns and grays in my 20's and 30's.