[dorine]

hi

My name is Dorine and I have been Dxed with D.I.D for over 10 years. I fear I should be well by now, you know..Whole, but here I am and I'm glad I found this web page.

When I say 10 years I mean I have been getting help with the D.I.D for that long but not with the same T. In fact..I Just got a new T and have had one session with her. After what happened with my last T I'm scared to be alone in a room with anyone. I'm also scared that I wil be abandoned and have to suffer this hurt again.

With my last "T" she and her husband forcibly tried to do a excorsism on me. I was terrfied. There is a lot more to what happened that night in my therapist office but it's to painful to speak about. I am still shocked that my "T" would do this and I am very hurt that she is gone. She got fired from the mental health institute that she was working for We had no closure. I got no explanation why she thought that tieing us up and forcibly holding me down so her husband could try and perform and excorsim, would help us. Even though she did this..I am really grieving the loss of her as my "T"

Before this happened, she was really helping us, We rusted her and she seem to care about us. This is So out of the norm of what she would do, so I don't understand why she did it.

I am set up with another appt with this new "T" but I am so scared to even think of trusting her, but I know that without therapy we will continue to go down hill. I never thought I could ever be hurt by someone to this extent, especially by someone I totally trusted.

Any suggestions on how I can get over my fear? I feel really alone right now and very depressed. All because I miss my old T so much. I just can't believe this happened.

Thanks for listening.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((Dorine)))))))))))))) I'm so very sorry that that happened to you. You are so brave and wise to go back to another T.

For me, the only way I'm able to see if my T is safe is time. It's taken a few years (we don't trust easily...) for us to start to trust and it still seems like a lot of things make us back up and have to think through the safe thing again.

My advice is to just give it time. Your new T might have to prove that she is safe and trustworthy but if she's a good T, she'll be up to the task.

I'm glad you're here. There are a lot of really very understanding people here. I hope you will find the support you need.

Take care and welcome to Pysch Central.

ohhhhhh... sweetie... very gentle ((((hugs)))).... what an experience... you have our support during this time... and please hang out at PC.. the people are so wonderful..

you have so much courage.. and you are so brave... trying a new T...

I have had to find new T.. during the 23 years I was Dxed.. and really.. though it may not seem like it now.. each T is special.. though after your last experience, it may seem very hard to even consider that..

I cannot fathom, why she did that to you... except that she had some very real problems herself.. and so did her husband...

They had absolutely no right to treat you like that.. it was most hurtful... and so betraying of your trust....

[bipolar_bear]

Welcome to PC. I hope you can find a t you can feel safe with. I am so sorry that you were hurt by someone you trusted. Take care.

BB