Taking showers freaks me out. We shower 2x's a day, a good long one after work to get the funk off and a quick fresher in the morning.

It seems like stepping into the shower enters us into another dimension where mind and body seperates. I get all dazy and floaty losing focus with everyone thinking at once while the body washes it's self like in automatic. Once we step out, I can't remember taking one even though I'm dripping wet naked. Sometimes I climb back into the shower terribly annoyed and mad which gives me an edge to stay present.

Everyday every morning this happens. It makes me feel like there is something more then mindlessly showering because at times I try to force myself to stay in the present, but it's a struggle to in which I usually end up succumbing to the daze.

I do love the clean fresh feeling after a shower....it's just the loss of mental awareness and time that bothers me. Maybe its the menial routine of washing that gets cued out?

Clean and confused.

Maybe it's just normal dissociation,no different than when someone drives somewhere but doesn't really remember driving there?

Showering is such a mundane,repetitive thing that doesn't really require any focus,so maybe you're just so busy thinking about other things that you don't even pay attention to what you are doing..just doing it automatically,just like so many other things we all(the entire population)do on autopilot.

Or,maybe it's possible there's past trauma related to showering.I used to really struggle with showers/baths,panic attacks,flashbacks,etc.,but once I worked through the trauma the struggles went away.

[Luce]

Hmm, we often have flashbacks in the shower. Not all the time. But when we are particularly distressed or in a dissociative daze it is noticeably worse. We often find ourselves in curled up tears in the shower. We know there was trauma related to showers in our case.
Have you tried asking inside about it? Does anyone else know what is happening for you when you shower?

[TrailRunner14]

As I was reading your post, I too was wondering if the shower was a trigger.

If it was me, I would ask inside like Luce suggested. Unedited journaling is where I would go with it and see what comes forward.

I live in a constant state of dissociation it seems...so it wouldn't be a far skip to go all the way. Nothing feels real...like I'm watching life with virtual 3D goggles on. A constant state of disconnect.

Even when I force focus....it seeps away.

For some reason everyone is mentally active and our mind is flooded with thoughts so much that I daze. Must be a lack of coffee thing.

To add...this makes it hard to judge distances and speed when driving.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Taking showers freaks me out. We shower 2x's a day, a good long one after work to get the funk off and a quick fresher in the morning.

It seems like stepping into the shower enters us into another dimension where mind and body seperates. I get all dazy and floaty losing focus with everyone thinking at once while the body washes it's self like in automatic. Once we step out, I can't remember taking one even though I'm dripping wet naked. Sometimes I climb back into the shower terribly annoyed and mad which gives me an edge to stay present.

Everyday every morning this happens. It makes me feel like there is something more then mindlessly showering because at times I try to force myself to stay in the present, but it's a struggle to in which I usually end up succumbing to the daze.

I do love the clean fresh feeling after a shower....it's just the loss of mental awareness and time that bothers me. Maybe its the menial routine of washing that gets cued out?

Clean and confused.

It's odd I ran across this post just now. I was talking earlier about how I stay in such a dissociative funk that I can't remember if I took a shower or not. There may be days where I don't shower or change clothes. I know it sounds horrible and I hate admitting to this. But I don't go anywhere for days so maybe that's the problem. If I have an appointment or somewhere else I need to be outside the house I will take a shower. But when I get in there I feel that daze of being in there. I may shave one leg and not the other. Or not shave my underarms or legs, and realize this once I get out. Then I have to get back in to take care of these things. It's frustrating for sure. I fell like if I get the cats fed, litterbox scooped and maybe one or two small things done my day is successful. This is not how I used to be though. I used to be busy getting things done as soon as my feet hit the floor and until I went to bed. *sigh* It's a blessing and a curse. I always feel better after a shower, but I keep telling myself I will do it later.....then it doesn't get done.

[kecanoe]

I rarely take showers. Fortunately for me, I have very dry hair and I don't sweat unless it is really hot. I am not sure why that is. I guess I will figure it out someday.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by kecanoe

I rarely take showers. Fortunately for me, I have very dry hair and I don't sweat unless it is really hot. I am not sure why that is. I guess I will figure it out someday.

Glad I'm not the only one.

I like showers. It feels real good to just stand there and soak up the heat.