[TrailRunner14]

I believe that I have posted this before, but I really need to ask this again.

I've been triggered too many times this week! They feel like they are layered on top of each other on top of me. It's almost suffocating. Numb.

Time is really weird feeling and there is this feeling that someone is "watching" me. It's not a paranoid kind of feeling. It's just the feeling that someone else is there and watching what I do. It's not like "I'm" watching me, it feels like someone... I don't have words.

Has anyone else experienced this?

It's kind of scary.

[junkDNA]

My T told me once (I feel like this often) that for me, it's probably my unhealthy, critical parent part that I feel is always "watching " me

[finding_my_way]

i have had a lot of variations of this throughout my lifetime.

some was feeling like i was being watched from the outside (as a child, it was eyes in the walls at one point or times kids did watch me in different situations and thought it was funny) or a feeling of being watched from above (like a higher power type thing due to something i was told/overheard as a child) or being watched from the inside which is more related to the alters/parts.

then there is the usual fear/paranoia type of being watched and potentially being followed/hurt (but some of that was reality too in the past).

there are a lot of variations of it for me, so it is a mix of PTSD, DID, and other things that all co-exist and the effects of it all depending on which is the prominent one (or sometimes all at the same time).

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by junkDNA

My T told me once (I feel like this often) that for me, it's probably my unhealthy, critical parent part that I feel is always "watching " me

Thank you! Yesterday was very unnerving. It felt like someone was in the room with me, watching me. It sure feels better to know that you have experienced it too and I'm not out there somewhere.

My counselor and I talked about it last night and my critic part seems to acknowledge it.

I'm reading a book by Pete Walker and there is actually a section in the book that talks about it. I found it this afternoon. That was pretty cool.

There is a movie that I saw a few years ago, and the way I was feeling made me think of it. Deja Vu is the name of the movie.

Thank you again!

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by finding_my_way

i have had a lot of variations of this throughout my lifetime.


some was feeling like i was being watched from the outside (as a child, it was eyes in the walls at one point or times kids did watch me in different situations and thought it was funny) or a feeling of being watched from above (like a higher power type thing due to something i was told/overheard as a child) or being watched from the inside which is more related to the alters/parts.


then there is the usual fear/paranoia type of being watched and potentially being followed/hurt (but some of that was reality too in the past).


there are a lot of variations of it for me, so it is a mix of PTSD, DID, and other things that all co-exist and the effects of it all depending on which is the prominent one (or sometimes all at the same time).

After I read your post, I have been thinking about it. I have experienced the feelings you are describing too, pretty much all of my life, that I can remember. It's in different levels and ways, but it's as if there has always been "someone" there.


Yesterday just felt so real. I kept looking over my shoulder expecting to see someone standing there. My son actually walked in the kitchen, behind me. I turned around and almost jumped out of my skin. I think I scared him more than it rattled me!


It was good to find it in black and white, in the book that I am reading. (Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving, by Pete Walker) I guess it gives me some reassurance that I'm not losing it.


Thank you for your reply!

[ruh roh]

Yes, this happens constantly. I also wake up to them in the middle of the night, watching. Sometimes, there's too much going on to sort through everything, but my therapist is good about helping to explore the different ways this shows up in a day (or night). I don't have an answer for you, but just wanted to share.

Sometimes I feel like someone is looking over my shoulder...or in the room watching, too.

I always accounted it to being bipolar paranoid or a spirit.

It's interesting to see that others like us have the same experiences....nvr knew.

[NoGreaterLove11]

I've felt this way. It's almost to the point where I can see a pair of eyeballs watching me. I think it has some connection to my "little" Henry. It can be really annoying, but, at least for me, staying away from caffeine has made it less of a problem.

[*Laurie*]

Yes, I often feel like someone is watching me, or that someone (besides my cats) is in the room with me. I don't have the feeling that the 'someone' has bad intentions, though. In fact, often the someone feels like a guardian or helper of some sort.

[dlantern]

A creative approach might be to get some chairs with magazines of faces taped to the chiars and just pretend that you practicing being watched. I do visualization exercise especially when Im self conscious I pretend the same eyes face is actually watching. I pretend they are affirming and being negative, asking questions explaining all in the comforts of your home.