Switching up at will and ability to create additional personas

Loose Screw x 2 · Dec 10, 2017, 06:42 PM

Hello. My name is Dan and I'm a multiple. I sometimes call myself a "Controlled Multiple" because I don't know any better way to describe myself/selves. My first childhood trauma created a strong alter who is opposite of me as far as the kind of person that I am.

Possible trigger:

We don't get along well but, he can behave himself when he sees that it's necessary or to his advantage. There are others besides myself which I consider to be the original or the adult version of the original if that makes any sense. The child version of the original is still with us and we are all very protective over him. He's only let out when we're alone and feel that it's safe or sometimes around family and some others while myself and some of my other personalities monitor what's going on closely in order to protect him.
I've never told anyone this stuff before. It feels so strange. Anyway, I/We are all aware of one another all of the time and know what each other are thinking and feeling all of the time. It's kind of like a collective consciousness I think. So, yes, we can switch to different selves for handling different situations but, we are also subject to triggers. Now, we also have Paranoid Schizophrenia and are not sure if this next part has any connection with that or not but, I have had to create some additional personalities deliberately in order to handle certain things/situations or whatever. One of these added personalities helps to maintain order in the mind by keeping the others satisfied so, that they don't get bent out of shape or lash out at one another or at me. My bad alter is strong enough to take control sometimes and when he's out and fired up, none of us can stop him, not even one that I created to counter him which can be pretty frustrating at times. When he's out he stays out until he burns through his/our energy and eventually fades away, leaving me feeling physically drained and weak.

So, I was just wondering if anyone else here knows how it feels to be this way or have this interesting ability to create and add new personalities to help manage things.

-Astral- · Dec 18, 2017, 03:18 PM

our host daddy Alex does this and makes others as well we hear voices in our heads and out our heads as far i we know we never met anyone who can do the same an ex friend who had DID said we where faking so we stopped talking to her

we promise we not faking -will we get in trouble ?

Loose Screw x 2 · Dec 18, 2017, 04:51 PM

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Originally Posted by -Astral-

our host daddy Alex does this and makes others as well we hear voices in our heads and out our heads as far i we know we never met anyone who can do the same an ex friend who had DID said we where faking so we stopped talking to her

Sometimes people just refuse to learn about things they don't understand. Don't worry about it.

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Originally Posted by -Astral-

we promise we not faking -will we get in trouble ?

No. Everything is fine. Nothing is going to happen.

amandalouise · Dec 18, 2017, 08:44 PM

I was never able to switch at will. with me my DID was because I was abused in the most horrific ways before the age of 5. none of my alters were self chosen self created. they were created due to the abuse and during the abuse. the switching with me was dissociative related meaning anytime I experienced my dissociative symptoms an alter would take control to handle what ever was causing me to have my dissociative symptoms.

I did have what my treatment providers called an imaginary friend which is different than having DID alters in my location. I could at any time use my imagination and create someone to play with, talk to and be with at will.

to tell the difference between the two different kinds of people in me my treatment providers used the DSM diagnostic criteria. if they didnt fit the diagnostic criteria my treatment provders called them imaginary friends, if they fit the criteria my treatment providers called them DID alters in me.

dlantern · Dec 18, 2017, 10:34 PM

Say if sensory overload will create me then sure go ahead. It is taboo most dont understand dont like it or too share. If u admit it later on then I guess thats fine I would suggest be well versed at what it actually means.

kecanoe · Dec 20, 2017, 02:09 AM

I didn't read what you put in the trigger warning, but I do believe that at certain points of deep stress I have just created a new part to deal with things. I don't do that any more.

I am working on being able to switch back to adult when I want to. I would say that I am making progress with that. I do not deliberately switch to young parts, although there are some situations where it's like I know that a little will evoke the response I want so she steps up.

Loose Screw x 2 · Dec 24, 2017, 07:40 PM

My name is V and I can assure you that I and the other introjects are very real and it was necessary for us to be added as "Dan" can't defend himself on his on and needs us to help out. There is also a gatekeeper personality called the Primary who maintains order in the mind. If you do a little research you will find that this is a very real part of some who suffer from DID.

elladeker · Jan 03, 2018, 03:27 AM

I think talking about child trauma needs very seriously. Such problems have almost every other

fille_folle · Jan 05, 2018, 07:08 PM

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Originally Posted by MavriforceK9r

My name is V and I can assure you that I and the other introjects are very real and it was necessary for us to be added as "Dan" can't defend himself on his on and needs us to help out. There is also a gatekeeper personality called the Primary who maintains order in the mind. If you do a little research you will find that this is a very real part of some who suffer from DID.

Part of the criteria for DID is that there can't always be co-consciousness, there must be amnesia. It sounds like that doesn't describe your experience, so it would be more appropriate for you all to argue as a person suffering from Other Specified Dissociative Disorder.

Jan 05, 2018, 07:34 PM

MayiforceK9r, may I ask a tangent issue as it recently came up with me?!!! Well, I will & you can feel free to ignore. You said...we also have Paranoid Schizophernia. Does that mean one or more of your alters have been dxed Paranoid? Or the system as a whole? Thanks for considering this tangent.

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Originally Posted by MavriforceK9r

Hello. My name is Dan and I'm a multiple. I sometimes call myself a "Controlled Multiple" because I don't know any better way to describe myself/selves. My first childhood trauma created a strong alter who is opposite of me as far as the kind of person that I am.

Possible trigger:

We don't get along well but, he can behave himself when he sees that it's necessary or to his advantage. There are others besides myself which I consider to be the original or the adult version of the original if that makes any sense. The child version of the original is still with us and we are all very protective over him. He's only let out when we're alone and feel that it's safe or sometimes around family and some others while myself and some of my other personalities monitor what's going on closely in order to protect him.
I've never told anyone this stuff before. It feels so strange. Anyway, I/We are all aware of one another all of the time and know what each other are thinking and feeling all of the time. It's kind of like a collective consciousness I think. So, yes, we can switch to different selves for handling different situations but, we are also subject to triggers. Now, we also have Paranoid Schizophrenia and are not sure if this next part has any connection with that or not but, I have had to create some additional personalities deliberately in order to handle certain things/situations or whatever. One of these added personalities helps to maintain order in the mind by keeping the others satisfied so, that they don't get bent out of shape or lash out at one another or at me. My bad alter is strong enough to take control sometimes and when he's out and fired up, none of us can stop him, not even one that I created to counter him which can be pretty frustrating at times. When he's out he stays out until he burns through his/our energy and eventually fades away, leaving me feeling physically drained and weak.

So, I was just wondering if anyone else here knows how it feels to be this way or have this interesting ability to create and add new personalities to help manage things.

Loose Screw x 2 · Jan 07, 2018, 01:25 PM

I, the one who considers himself the host have read up on paranoid schizophrenia and the symptoms all fall into place and explain what I have dealt with all of my life. I am super paranoid. Do you want to know how paranoid? I can look into your eyes, I can see into the very depths of your soul and know the manner of your thoughts. DH is the most schizophrenic of all of my personalities or states of mind or modes or whatever you would like to call them. He thinks himself to be a god and feels like it too, especially with intense anger or agitation. His delusions are so intense that the rest of us can feel the energy or power or whatever it is flowing from him and it is for him intoxicating. When he is in control of the body none other is and after he leaves we feel drained as if he has sapped our strength. If it isn't DID then, it can only be demonic possesion as I and some of my others have suspected before. DH gets off on our or my worry that he is a demon. He likes it and has other names that he calls himself such as "Super Legion" and "Legion 2". I hope that answers your questions. You asked ME and I told you the ugly truth. Art thou satisfied?

Jan 07, 2018, 06:58 PM

Very much so, MaviforceK9. Thanks for helping me understand.

QUOTE=MavriforceK9r;5970837]I, the one who considers himself the host have read up on paranoid schizophrenia and the symptoms all fall into place and explain what I have dealt with all of my life. I am super paranoid. Do you want to know how paranoid? I can look into your eyes, I can see into the very depths of your soul and know the manner of your thoughts. DH is the most schizophrenic of all of my personalities or states of mind or modes or whatever you would like to call them. He thinks himself to be a god and feels like it too, especially with intense anger or agitation. His delusions are so intense that the rest of us can feel the energy or power or whatever it is flowing from him and it is for him intoxicating. When he is in control of the body none other is and after he leaves we feel drained as if he has sapped our strength. If it isn't DID then, it can only be demonic possesion as I and some of my others have suspected before. DH gets off on our or my worry that he is a demon. He likes it and has other names that he calls himself such as "Super Legion" and "Legion 2". I hope that answers your questions. You asked ME and I told you the ugly truth. Art thou satisfied?[/QUOTE]

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