I found this really weird that had me questioning and wondering about my mental saneness all day and still is.

I really wanted a sponge basket for under the kitchen sink, one that allows air to flow through and not too big, so I went to Walmart yesterday to get one. I looked them all over both aisles and decided on this little white decorative one that was square, had straight hard sides with cross hatch and holes. When I got home, I put it on the countertop and not gave it another thought.

This morning, I accidentally knocked it off the countertop getting ready for work making coffee, so I decided to put it to use to get it out of the way. I opened the cabinet and did a double take... there in the cabinet was the same style basket with the sponges in it already. Stare in unbelief. Cue Twighlght Zone music...I ran around the counter to make sure that actually just happened...and there it was laying on the floor.

I know, I forgot that I already bought one of course, but the absolute no recollection even of now has me bothered....I mean I say I’m not that bad then crap like this happens...this ain’t the only weird stuff that happens, but it’s the most recent and blatant. I can’t shrug this one off yet...it lingers in my mind.

I know I have alters but thought we were more like DID/OSDD Lite. Like diet DID or something. Low calorie.

I guess that I’m not exactly in denial....just ain’t got it that bad if there is such a thing like just a touch of the flu: a touch of DID, nothing too serious to worry about (yeah I know).

I mean after all...

[Amyjay]

I hear you! Things like this happen to me too. I swear I hardly ever lose time or have a black out, where I am one place one second and the next thing I know it is a different place and time entirely. I mean it does happen, but hardly ever. Most of the time I think I don't lose time at all but the evidence of actions unremembered whacks me in the face a lot. I think most of the time it is things I just ignore and pretend don't happen at all... but then sometimes things like you with the sponge holder happen and for the life of you you can't dredge up any memory of it at all.
Things that make you go "hmmm"!
This was one of the things I relate to a lot from that post I did the other day about amnesia. its very tricky to know if you have it or not sometimes.

lol. Yeah there are somethings that you can ignore and check off to absentmindedness or maybe distraction...but to actually have taken this much effort and thought....very unsettling.

It still s playing in my head. I’m beginning to see a memory of it full of sponges organized, but it is vague and foggy like maybe just my imagination.

There are times I go in a daze and come to later to find myself heading to work, bills are paid, already ate, driving down the freeway. I reach for a cup of hot coffee and the cup is now cold and empty. Stuff like keys disappear to later find them in doors that I haven’t got to yet...small wow things that I roll my eyes at.

Just hours, but not days thank goodness.

Once I had a part wake up after years, looked around, said “I’m in another state with a woman with two kids in bed. I guess we’ll see how this goes”. Wha?

I hate that it’s a reminder of the scrambled egg that I call my mind. It’s depressing actually. So I guess that’s why I try to keep laughing it off because I can get sui over it.

[amandalouise]

before I was integrated I was always discovering I had done something already. it was just my normal to wake up in the morning only to discover it was another day and I was somewhere I didnt remember, the same with my alters. I had one alter that was a frequent flier. by that I mean they were always packing up and moving somewhere, starting a whole new life somewhere else. my treatment providers called this dissociative fugue, before 2013 this was a separate dissociative disorder, now its a .....specifier.....for depersonalization/derealization disorder. by specifier I mean a treatment provider must write on files whether or not a persons depersonalization/ dereaization disorder comes with fugue states / moments or not.

my point maybe you can check with your treatment providers to see if they have listed fugue to your file. if so this will give you some much needed help. because it was part of my files my treatment providers, family and I were able to protect me and help me get back home sometimes free of charge if you end up in a situation again where you or your alters are somewhere you dont remember getting there and need to get back home. home being your new life or your old one.

as for the finding out I had bought things already that I had planned or wanted, again I have had a life time of that happening in all different categories of items and in all different areas of my life. the strangest but not shocking because I grew up this way was mad balls and cans and cans of chef boyardee spegetti and meatballs. ohhh the stories I can tell bout finding things in the kitchen that I didnt remember buying and rebought before integration. though I do wish the one that kep buying the mops would have actually used those mops.

Originally Posted by amandalouise

before I was integrated I was always discovering I had done something already. it was just my normal to wake up in the morning only to discover it was another day and I was somewhere I didnt remember, the same with my alters. I had one alter that was a frequent flier. by that I mean they were always packing up and moving somewhere, starting a whole new life somewhere else. my treatment providers called this dissociative fugue, before 2013 this was a separate dissociative disorder, now its a .....specifier.....for depersonalization/derealization disorder. by specifier I mean a treatment provider must write on files whether or not a persons depersonalization/ dereaization disorder comes with fugue states / moments or not.

my point maybe you can check with your treatment providers to see if they have listed fugue to your file. if so this will give you some much needed help. because it was part of my files my treatment providers, family and I were able to protect me and help me get back home sometimes free of charge if you end up in a situation again where you or your alters are somewhere you dont remember getting there and need to get back home. home being your new life or your old one.

as for the finding out I had bought things already that I had planned or wanted, again I have had a life time of that happening in all different categories of items and in all different areas of my life. the strangest but not shocking because I grew up this way was mad balls and cans and cans of chef boyardee spegetti and meatballs. ohhh the stories I can tell bout finding things in the kitchen that I didnt remember buying and rebought before integration. though I do wish the one that kep buying the mops would have actually used those mops.

I’ve bought everything we own 2-3 times over already because someone throws stuff away...and to have stuff I would never eat. We donate to our local food pantry quite often to find it back on the shelves. I thought bipolar was expensive...this takes the cake! Lol.

I’m considering buying a dry erase board.

[mostlylurking]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I’m considering buying a dry erase board.

Anyplace where you can leave notes for each other / yourself sounds like a helpful idea to me. A notebook maybe? It can help with communication for sure.

Originally Posted by mostlylurking

Anyplace where you can leave notes for each other / yourself sounds like a helpful idea to me. A notebook maybe? It can help with communication for sure.

We tried the notebook, but not everyone uses it and it gets tossed aside and forgotten. It also looks like evidence of our cray cray. Idk...more a in your face reminder/note board.

Feeling apprehensive of that idea at the moment. Anything in writing seems very convicting.

[Colour of Madness]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I’m considering buying a dry erase board.

YES! I was talking to hubby about doing that this morning, I'm hopeless at the moment in particular, we have been so in and out and maybe not as co consciousness as usual, we seem to have differing opinions on what time or day of the week it is and its causing problems!
A dry erase board of 'To Do's' that get ticked off is necessary - I keep forgetting to feed my chickens too because it was my routine every morning but someone else has been waking up in the mornings and they're not doing it, then later in the day I just assume it has been done because that was always my routine.
I double up on things or forget them entirely - often - the other week I had to make an appointment for Monday to get the car looked at and forgot repeatedly, I finally remembered to do it and I was SO proud of myself, I rang up and booked for next Monday and went on with my day. Around 6hours later it dawned on my that it WAS Monday, I had thought it was Friday, I was certain it was Friday, even though I knew we had been to a psychiatrist appointment that day which I knew was on Monday - in fact I had booked the car in while waiting for that appointment but someone else actually went to the appointment not me! It's extremely confusing!!

Hey, at least you know you really like that sponge basket!

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

We tried the notebook, but not everyone uses it and it gets tossed aside and forgotten. It also looks like evidence of our cray cray. Idk...more a in your face reminder/note board.

Feeling apprehensive of that idea at the moment. Anything in writing seems very convicting.

I like that idea. I too have had no success ever with stick it notes, notebooks, or anything of the sort. it is forgotten. Always. I haven't found way that works for us. Which means that we live with a lot of dysfunction at work. We can never manage the tasks that are required of us.

[Loose Screw x 2]

What about missing memories of doing things like taking out the garbage then, walking by the waist basket later and being like "When did that get emptied?" or ink pens missing only to turn up later in the exact spot that they should be or the same thing with a TV remote or a lighter or keys or wallet and so on? The first time I ever noticed this small-sized items vanishing and returning was whenever I would read ghost stories and began to wonder if it was related to paranormal activity then, when I looked into that I found other people talking about similar experiences in relation to reading about ghosts but, now I'm wondering if it is connected with brief memory loss or lapses or switching or something. This used to happen in stores too with viewing products, hanging on pegs.
Like seeing a product on a peg, looking away for a minute or two then, looking back and it isn't there or wasn't there at first glance but, now is.
Has anyone ever had experiences like this?

I was just at Walmart and it wasn’t on my shopping list...totally forgot about all that till I read this post...like it was my idea to begin with, but I try to help even though I think it’s not going to work.