I'm just generally very confused

I'm not sure if my experience is DID or just a weird way i cope but i find myself comparing it. im too scared to bring it up with my case worker since she can be kind of judgmental ( shes indirectly mentioned other patients basically calling them crazy and using the term "cutters") but it gets kind of distressing. i have periods of time where i dont feel like myself to the point i dont know what is really me. i go from shy and nerdy to hateful and rude in the blink of an eye and its almost like im just clawing at my mind trying to get back to normal. ive discovered other ways that its happened but thats the most drastic. ive even developed names/ways to address them all, ive found 6 but the lines get so blurred sometimes which makes me seriously doubt its even anything real. i feel like its just a way i act and pretend to deal with my emotional and mental state. if anyone is willing to offer any kind of advise or anything that may help id be glad to hearing anything anyone has to say. im sorry if these seems rude to anyone genuinely suffering from the disorder but i just want any possible help to figure things out.

It sounds like these would be good things to talk over with a therapist. You say you have a "case worker" (I don't know what her role is) but it doesn't sound like she is very professional about her job if she talks about other derogatively. Do you have a therapist?

I see by your introduction post that you are 17? most 17 yr olds that I know do feel the same way that you do. some do things like name their feelings and so on. one of my nieces calls times when she is shy Bashful B, her hateful moods, the she devil, and her own name when she is happy.

what Im saying is that ...........most times.......... it is normal for the teens in my life to be unsure of their self, who they are, what they want in life, and have mood swings from being sad to happy, shy to outgoing, hateful sometimes, rude other times....

Sometimes yes these things can be a problem. We cant tell you whether this is normal or not, all we can do is tell you what goes on in our own lives and those we know, for actual help in figuring out these things you will need to talk with your therapist or medical doctor.

what I can tell you about DID is its not really about feeling shy one moment and hateful the next. DID is a mental disorder that begins in people before the age of 5. think of it like your friend at school and your enemy at school and you all sharing the same body, and even though you all share the same body you dont share the same memories, emotions, likes, dislikes, what you do, why each is there, what each ones purpose is, why they were created and all kinds of stuff. And it isnt pretending to switch in order to deal with things. theres also lots of other stuff that happens with DID that isnt put on the internet or in books and movies. stuff only psychiatrists, therapists and medical doctors know.

my suggestion is if you feel like you have DID the best thing to do is get tested. tell your doctor what you think is going on and they will get you set up for all kinds of medical tests and set up with a psychiatrist who can have you take some special mental disorder tests. new tests that are not on the internet and can only be done through them, These tests get updated and changed every few months so for example someone you may know that went through psych testing at the beginning of the year is not going to be what you will have to do for your test.

my moms been trying to get me one but were kind of broke so its hard. were thinking about when i turn 17 just going to the clinic for medication to get rid of the case worker .