Is anybody really happy?

All I can remember is how a happy child in the innocence of youth might feel before being ruined by growing up.

I have many more adjectives that better describes my feelings of which mostly are negative, like mortified, humiliated, sad, frustrated, horrorified, ... that best describes my feelings of self.

My self-image is shattered, my self-esteem about gone...where do I begin and where do I end?

So I ask, are you happy?

yes, I am. I have forgiven the many bad people who hurt me. I dont hold grudges. I have worked very hard in therapy to get over things.
I still have a few inside people who have hard times.
But overall we are happy, positive, and have a lot of joy.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Is anybody really happy?

All I can remember is how a happy child in the innocence of youth might feel before being ruined by growing up.

I have many more adjectives that better describes my feelings of which mostly are negative, like mortified, humiliated, sad, frustrated, horrorified, ... that best describes my feelings of self.

My self-image is shattered, my self-esteem about gone...where do I begin and where do I end?

So I ask, are you happy?

Yes I am happy. I dont dwell on what could have been before the abuse, I dont dwell on the abuse. I instead look at reality that no matter who and what happens every human being is going to naturally have times when they feel happy, sad and any other number of emotions.

what makes a person happy is their own choices. example I could sit around my home reminding myself of all the painful moments in my life causing myself to slip further and further down until I no longer see that even though I didnt have the best of life I did have moments in my life where I was happy... getting that new job, marrying my wife right after NY passed the same sex marriage law allowing lesbians to get married, the days each of my children were born, the moments that my wife and I found out I or she was pregnant, celebrating milestones in my and my family and friends lives.... heck even reading my past posts here I can find many instances where I have posted happy and positive things going on in my life...

suggestion maybe if you reread some of your past posts you will find many happy times that you have posted about. I mean your post count is 6,735 what are the odds that every single one of those 6,735 posts you have made that contain parts of you and your life and childhood adulthood... documenting just your life as being negative, mortified, humiliated, sad, frustrated, horrified, ......?

[MickeyCheeky]

It is possible to be happy overrall... happy doesn't mean being joyful every minute of your life, in my opinion

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

It is possible to be happy overrall... happy doesn't mean being joyful every minute of your life, in my opinion

How? Sure you can be happy in spurts...but I’m devastated. Overall happy, really?

One can be happy in their achievements...but can a person with gender dysphoria?

An empty shell?

Just the knowledge of being screwed is not a happy one. Where do you find this thing called happy in all this?

Happiness is fake...even the singulars seem unhappy.

[Fuzzybear]

I too tend to think that happiness tends to be fake.

Happy in small pieces, maybe. Overall happy. No.

(If I could take ****kng meds it might help but I can’t ..)

So many inane, boring fake “instructions” on “how to be happy” especially in big, shouting letters - even on a MH forum - not here. I’d like to eat some of them but I’d get indigestion, not anyone here.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Is anybody really happy?

All I can remember is how a happy child in the innocence of youth might feel before being ruined by growing up.

I have many more adjectives that better describes my feelings of which mostly are negative, like mortified, humiliated, sad, frustrated, horrorified, ... that best describes my feelings of self.

My self-image is shattered, my self-esteem about gone...where do I begin and where do I end?

So I ask, are you happy?

no

I am... would I say I'M sad?

yeah think I would. most days I just go around like a zombie just going through the motions- their's nothing in my life that says yess, this is a reason to be here (my music, but even that I feel I could probably live without)