[elevatedsoul]

Im broken... im afraid to even talk

I feel so misunderstood..
I cant seem to think clearly
words are elusive and contorted
confusion in myself expressing
mind bending others perception..
I am just feeling im going to explode
not enough room in this body...
Cant coexist, why am i here..?
:'(

[blackrainbow]

I'm sorry youre feeling like this it makes it feel like it'll never get better
you're here because you matter because you belong here
I hope you get to feeling better soon

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, elevatedsoul I completely agree with what blackrainbow has already wisely said better than I ever could. You're here because you matter. You're a wonderful person. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. Please don't give up. Things won't stay like this forever. They can and will get better. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. I'm here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. Stay strong, elevatedsoul. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Keep fighting! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

[elevatedsoul]

I feel embarrassed and ashamed of my personalities presentations.. like a strong dread sensation that becomes a physical sensation

I cant help it this happens...
I don't want it to be like this, i dont know what to do about it though..
I hate switching and changing and feeling so blank and oblivious struggling to remember anything and ...


I wish it was something i could just cut out of me surgically but i know i cant...
And i know it wont go away
and i am struggling to feel like its me because its.. not. ..?

I dont want to get in any trouble

[amandalouise]

The best thing I can tell you Elevated Soul is to contact your treatment providers. they are the ones that have diagnosed you with borderline personality disorder and .....in general ..... what you have posted does happen with that disorder so they are in the best position to help you to understand your system and how to get you out of the ruts you keep falling into.

On a more personal level I wouldnt even hazard a guess on why things are happening the way that they are with you and what you need to do about it. Im sorry I cant help you more other that telling you to contact your treatment providers but bottom line is all we can do is let each other know we have read their post and what our own treatment providers are doing for our selves. I am sorry that you keep going through the same problems over and over again and that I cant help you more than just pointing you to your own treatment providers.

[elevatedsoul]

Im going to be ok. Im just under alot of pressure and pretty stressed..

I am going to hopefully find my way to the clinic so i can be "treated" once more
have yet to get rescheduled...

But i think ill figure it out..

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm really happy to hear it, elevatedsoul Please don't give up hope. Try to get the help you need and deserve. I hope you'll feel better soon. Like you've said, you can do this. You just need to figure it out. Take all the time you need. Just take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. No need to hurry. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this. Remember that you're stronger than you think. You've got this. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Stay strong, elevatedsoul. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're a strong, wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. It must be very hard for you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this