[Rive1976]

So I have some doubts about my therapist diagnosis as you all know. It dawned on me today though that I really just dont want this diagnosis. Can I even technically be diagnosed OSDD if I havent been tested since 2003? Anyway, since she said I had it I have had alot of emotions come up that are hard for me to deal with. I feel like a freak, I feel depressed, I feel like I am losing it, I feel sad for my child parts (if they are there), I am dissociating in therapy when talking about child parts. I am just having a hard time with all of this.

[rise13eyond]

I don't know all about how diasnosis diagnosises? That word, I don't really know how how that works, but with this kind of disorder you always have it or you don't. If you had it in 2003 then you'd still have it now and whether someone else believes you have it or not doesn't change whether you have it or not. Not sure if that was what you were looking for. But I know the feeling of not wanting it. I put off getting a diagnosis until I was about 27-28 because I didn't want one and didn't want anyone else to know once I'd finally admitted it to myself. It is hard to deal with, not because there's anything wrong with you or your parts. Any MI is tough to swallow because even if you're not ashamed of it you don't necessarily want it. It's not fun but it doesn't have to be absolutely miserable either.

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by rise13eyond

I don't know all about how diasnosis diagnosises? That word, I don't really know how how that works, but with this kind of disorder you always have it or you don't. If you had it in 2003 then you'd still have it now and whether someone else believes you have it or not doesn't change whether you have it or not. Not sure if that was what you were looking for. But I know the feeling of not wanting it. I put off getting a diagnosis until I was about 27-28 because I didn't want one and didn't want anyone else to know once I'd finally admitted it to myself. It is hard to deal with, not because there's anything wrong with you or your parts. Any MI is tough to swallow because even if you're not ashamed of it you don't necessarily want it. It's not fun but it doesn't have to be absolutely miserable either.

I was around that same age when I got diagnosed too.