[blackbelt]

Hi. I have DID and was diagnosed with it 3 1/2 years ago. I am 25.

I guess I am just looking for new places to be and express myself.

There are about 15 of us right now. I am the main person who has the job and people always see. We have an awesome counselor named Candy. She is awesome and our life would stink if she hadn't of helped us so much!

Hope to get to know people here and make new friends.

BlackBelt

[Zorah]

hi blackbelt & welcome to PC

[nothemama8]

welcome blackbelt
Angie

[bipolar_bear]

Welcome to PC blackbelt. And hi to everyone.

BB

[valuable1]

Hi Blackbelt,
I'm 50 years old and female. I was integrated about 12 years ago. I'm new to this sight as I feel I may be having problems again. Looking for support, encouragement and hope to help someone else too. So... welcome to the sight and keep writing.

[blackbelt]

I'd like to know about your integration.

BlackBelt

[blackbelt]

Thanks for all the nice welcomes.

[wanttoheal]

Hi Blackbelt, Welcome to PC! It's great to hear that you have a good counselor. Mine is pretty special too. What would we do without them! We're glad you're here and look forward to hearing more from you.

[valuable1]

HI Blackbelt,
My integration...where to start??
Once we worked through all the repressed memoryies and got to know all the alters and how my particular system worked,( which I never fully understood), and all the alters were willing to integrate. My counselor just talked me through the visualization. In my mind I just pictured the alters and myself slowly spinning in a circle until they were joined back into me. We did groups of two until we were all put back together. My system wasn't real complicated, I think it took 3-4 years all together.

[ginniesky]

hi blackbelt nice to meet you keep writing okay

[blackbelt]

Thats kind of cool. I am still working through things but things are getting better. I think I have been in therapy for 4yrs and the diagnosed for 3 1/2. She wanted to make sure first. I don't remember when she told me or how but I remember trying to prove her wrong for a long time. You can't prove them wrong if they aren't wrong!

I guess I don't really understand how it works and I will probably better understand it if I ever get to that point or if it is good for my system... You just never know I guess. Thanks

Blackbelt

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HI Blackbelt,
My integration...where to start??
Once we worked through all the repressed memoryies and got to know all the alters and how my particular system worked,( which I never fully understood), and all the alters were willing to integrate. My counselor just talked me through the visualization. In my mind I just pictured the alters and myself slowly spinning in a circle until they were joined back into me. We did groups of two until we were all put back together. My system wasn't real complicated, I think it took 3-4 years all together.

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[wanttoheal]

I was the same way. When I was diagnosed with DID, I denied it to the max. I came up with all sorts of other reasons why it couldn't be DID. None of them held water, but I kept trying. It took me over 3 years to accept the possibility. When I finally accepted (to a degree), it was much more peaceful. And things made sense and I didn't feel as crazy. I still go through times when I think I can't be DID. It HAS to be something else. T has said other parts of me don't even understand the concept of DID and some think she is crazy lol.

Sometimes if T says DID in session, my brain goes on an overload freak out thing but we're getting better at saying Okay, there are parts. Where do we go from here. And we're also good at saying, no, we can't go there haha.

T doesn't know how long it will take or if I will ever be fully integrated. I always think we're going 100 mph though, but T says we're going pretty slow. For me, it's a very slow process because when we go faster than a snails pace, things get worse for me. Overall, some days really stink. But we'll get there- or we'll get somewhere at any rate!