is it depersonalization?

Forgive the spelling of the title. But I read some of the symptoms of that disorder and that is exactly how I feel: disconnected and unreal.
Like I feel in a dream. But I KNOW I'm real. I don't have any halluconations. I have thoughts that I talk back to. But I'm not hearing them just thinking them. I've had problems with delusions,thinking I have a horrible terminal illness, or people, specifically my in-laws, no joke, are trying to hurt me or get to me in some way. Does this sound familiar to anyone? Or am I going to lose my mind and get dementia? I'm not kidding I am really afraid that will happen to me. I saw my granddad go thru alzhiemers and it's scary. I don't want that.

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Welcome to PC. That does sound pretty scary. Has this always been going on or is this something new? Has your stress increased? When my stress level is higher, I am further away from myself looking down.

I used to think the same, that it really wasn't dissociation but some disease that was causing all of this. For me, it was denial after I found out that I had a dissociation disorder. I didn't think it could possibly be what it was.

Do you have a therapist that you could talk to about this? I understand the fears and I would say definitely go to a medical doctor and get a physical to rule out any medical reason for this. If everything comes back okay on that scale, perhaps seeing a therapist would help. There are a lot of things that could cause this type of thing so try not to jump into the thought process of Alzheimer's. I know that's hard to do but keep doing self talk.

Please keep us posted and good luck with everything.