[___Shadow___]

When your body goes from happy to so very sad for no reason, how do you get back. If I didn't have to spend so much time in the sad self, feeling all the pain and torture she feels I might have the energy to heal. I don't even think like her, She just goes off on a rampage and I have to go for the ride.

[pegasus]

It is hard.

But the thing is, you are aware that is how she feels, that's kind of a good sign in a way.

Find some comfort for her, a cuddly toy or something else she might like, drawing or writing can help.

((((((((((((( Shadow )))))))))))))) Gentle hugs.

[___Shadow___]

Ya I've always thought why am I crying, I'm not sad but I am. Now that I understand the WHY, I need to figure out the How. I was wondering, will Drawing/painting make it better or just cover up the problem till next time? I always think I have to fix cause of the cover up thing. I've been covering up for years, I've always known my thought were overtaken, just didn't know quite how or what to do about it.
Why can't i just say to that part, hey it's not the way u think it is and she listen?

[pegasus]

Drawing, painting and writing can really help as it can help with getting communication between the various parts.

Healing takes a long time for anyone with DID or PTSD, I know it can be very frustrating.

(((((((((((( Shadow ))))))))))))

[Angel_of_the_Past]

You are so correct, it's so very hard. Often I feel like I'm just along for the ride too. Just keep reaching out and posting it helps.
Hugs from Angel

[wanttoheal]

Yea, drawing and painting sound like excellent ideas. Understanding ourselves can help so much. We can learn to nurture ourselves in ways needed to feel better. Good luck with everything.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( Shadow )))))))))))))))

[___Shadow___]

Thank you so Much

[kimmydawn]

I so understand and that's the primary (outside of the trust issue) difficulty in healing with therapy, I think.

My t often said it took so long and was so extremely frustrating because I had zero continuity with sessions and therapy.

So it was hit and miss, then out of the blue going back to hit, jumping around to miss and everything in between. Because of it, it was hit and miss like 100+ times.

It's very difficult, and though I've seen alot of healing, that was just one thing that had to be worked through and not healed itself. In other words, I just had to keep going around in those circles with that same lack of continuity because there was no way around it that we saw.

The good news though, is that even when it just felt like continual circles, things WERE sticking and the circles were getting smaller each time I started the pattern. It wasn't really noticeable at the time, but in hindsight it's very apparent.

Just know that even though it might not seem like progress isn't being made due to the constant mood changes, switches, etc., it can be...especially if a journal is kept. It helps every part to have at least a minute amount of awareness that can slow down the cycles by things "sticking".

I doubt I made any sense because it's so hard to put into words, but I hope I made a bit.

KD

That makes A LOT of sense, kimmydawn. Thanks for sharing part of your story.

It's hard to imagine in the early stages how everything will possibly come together eventually....

[___Shadow___]

Kimmydawn, That made so MUCH sense, wow if everything would sink in like that for me. I'm finding it takes a WAY of talking to me in order to get to where it needs to be, but try telling people that, LOL!
Thank you, I've started a healing folder now so when things don't make sense again, which I'm sure will happen soon, I'll refer to it, i HOPE!!

[multipixie9]

I used to try to press my opinions and beliefs on different parts. It didn't work because we'd both had different experiences. Also when I tried to force my beliefs on her it made her angry and upset because she REALLY CAN'T see things my way. My counselor helped me see that I have to let each part have their own opinions and feelings - forcing things makes trouble among the parts. My big job right now is learning how to cooperate and accept the others so we can learn to work together.

Hang in there and try hard to be patient with all of yourselves.

Leslie and Mariah and the pixies