IDK if this will trigger but warning just in case.



I don't feel human, I just feel like a disorder Who am I in this? I'm them, they're me, we're all separate but the same person. Some say do this, some say do that, I can't tell what I'm thinking no more, what people want me to think, what to do. I'm an adult, but I'm still a child inside, I feel like it's back then but it's 2008.

Too much confusion too much chaos. Are they parts of me or am I just a part or something else. I think I know all of me then there's someone I missed, but am I just another part, do they all know who I am, so lost. Is it stupid to be lost in yourself (but is it even myself?).

Am I me or am I them? Why do I have to be like this? I feel crazy I feel weird why can't I be a "normal" adult I don't know what I feel.

I barely know what I'm saying too confused too switchy sorry.

[Kendyll]

I don't know if there's anything i can say, but i just wanted you to know that I care about you. I really respect your strength and your journey. Hope you feel better.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((((Griffe))))))))
It's all you and you're not crazy. Hang in there.

[complic8d]

I can relate. I want to know which me is me, or who is I , they're all me, but then they are parts, so where is the whole me? When I say I who is the I that I am speaking of?
Yeah, I get confused too.
Take care!

Thanks everyone.


Just gets too hard... who am I, do I matter in this grand scheme of things. Is it "my" life, or am I just a player, I've never been in control and this doesn't help I think I know all of me and then I discover I don't, why can't I just be one person instead of so many. I don't feel human, I feel like this is all my fault, that no one understands and I'm stuck talking to myself

[multipixie9]

Oh, I know this is very hard for you, Griffe, sometimes I feel so much like this myself. I want everything to just smooth out and quiet down. I don't want to be the way I am...sometimes.

Then my Counselor helps me remember why I am this way and that it saved my life and my sanity. There are reasons, good reasons. This is a creative self-defense. If our choice was this or insanity we are so luckyy that it turned out this way.

OK, sure sometimes I feel really bummed over the crazy committe inside my head that can't agree on too much of anything.

I really do sympathize. I hope you can feel better soon. I wish things could settle for you and your parts. They are you and you are them and all of you are just OK!

Us Pixies, good and bad