WANT TO BITE SUMBODE

WENT TO SEE MY T TODAY. GET TO GO BAK TOMORROW. WE NOT FUNSHUNING WELL INSID US. NOT GETTING STUF DON IN HOUS.

DONT KNO HOW TO SAY FEELS INSIDE ME. ANGREE. WANT TO BITE SUMBODE. CHOMP HARD ON THEM AND HURT THEM. BIT DOWN HARD. CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP DOWN...... GRRRRRR!

HATE MY LIF, STUPID STUPID LIFE, STUPID STUPID PIXIES. ALL BAD ALL DUMB HATE HATE. CANT MAKE THE RITE WORDS KUM OUT OF MY HEAD. GET MAD CANT RITE. WANT TO BIT PHIL. PHIL IS BAD PERSON, WANT TO CHOMP ON HIM AND PUT HOLES IN HIM COS HE HURTS US AND IGNORES US. NOT FAIR. NOBODEE LUV US AS KID AND NO HUSBAND LOV US AS ADULT. NOT FAIR. STUPID TO BE ME. CHOMP ON ME, IM CLOSE AN NOBODEE WILL STOP YU FROM BITING ME.

I DONT EXPEC NOBODEE TO WRITE ME BACK I AM BAD AND HATEFUL AND WANT TO CHOMP SOMBODEE.

BAD PIXIE

(((((((((((multipixie9))))))))))))) I hope you feel better soon.

gentle hugs to any pixies who want them. please don't bite anyone. you might hurt your teeth. and i think you write pretty good, and your not bad and hateful, you are angry and you just want to be heard and loved. there are lots of people here who love you.

love
lost

Hey sweet pixie -

It's okay to be mad, that doesn't make you bad. It's even okay to want to bite somebody....just don't actually do it!! Sometimes I imagine myself throwing things at people, and it feels like I really want to do it, but it's just my way of thinking about how angry I am.

I hope you feel better and I'm glad you posted.

dont bite yurself k cuz it huts. i konw. =( put it on papur insted with crans . i do that lots.
me

((((((((((((( multipixies ))))))))))))))))))

Everyone here is right hon......you are not bad because you are mad. Do you know what I used to do when I was a kid and I would get so mad at something and so very frustrated?? I used to take my pillow and punch it and bite it really really hard. It really helped me to release some of my anger and frustration and I felt better afterwards!

I think you wrote out your feelings very well. If you are having trouble talking to T about them, why not print off what you wrote here and bring it with you and give it to T? Writing can be very helpful when you can't seem to get the words out of your mouth

Wishing you and everyone with you well!


sabby

((((((((((multipixie9))))))))))

THANX TO ALL U NIS PEEPL. I LIK U SOOO MUCH. U SO NIS TO ME/US.

WE GO TO T. TODA AND SHE HEP US DO SUMFIN. SHE HEP US TO GO BAK AN TAWK TO THE PIXIE WHO LERNED TO DO ALL THE SEX STUFF. CAN I SAY THE S-WERD HER?

IT WAS VEREE HARD TO SAY THEM WERDS COS OF BAD PITCHERS IN OUR HEDS. WE LERNT TO DO THE S. STUFF TO GETS SUM ATENSHUNS FRUM PEEPL LIK OUR BRUTHER JIMMY. AN MOST OF US HATED THE ONES WHO DO THE S STUFF. WE FEEL REEEEEEEELLLLLYYYYYY BAD ABOUT IT.

OUR T HEP US. COS SUM OF US HAD NEVER BEEN WILLIN TO SAY ABOU THAT. WE STUK THAT PART IN A BOX AN HATED THEM FOREVER UNTIL WE STOPPED TODAA. WE BERY EMBARESET ABOUT THAT.

THEY TEECH US BAD STUF - PAIN IS LUV, LUV IS PAIN. SEX IS PAIN I GET VEREE CONFUS ABOWT THIS. I DON WANNA SAY NO MORE COS I FEEL ICKY AND CRUMMY.

PLEES BE MY FRENS EVEN IF I SAY SUM BAD THINGS OK, PLEES? I BE UR FRENS TOO EVN IF U SAY SUM SAD/BAD THINGS. I NO HAV FRENS BECOS .....I DON KNO WHY BECOS

BYE BYE FRUM BAD PIXIE ONLY NOT BAD JUS LITTLE

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( Little Pixie ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I will be your friend!

You were very, very brave to talk to T about scary things.

You are not bad. You are a sweet, brave little pixie!!!

Thank you for all the support and kindness. I appreciate it very much.

In so many ways I am in a bettter place than I have been and yet I am in a tricky place to be dealing with some of the crazy s. r. a. stuff that was in my family.

Abuse is so bad but the coven stuff is soo sick and twisted that it makes me ill just trying to deal with it all.

Coming here has allowed me to find more freedom to let myself be in the littles place and let them communicate. I finally realized my spouses rejection of the diagnosis of DID has been holding me back from doing the necessary work. I have been trying to be his people pleaser and its time for me to do what will help me deal with this miserable crap and recover from it.

Each one of you adds such a unique note of kindness and cameraderie that helps so much. Thank you for all your sweet hugs and kind words and funny sense's of humor in other postings.

YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leslie, adult pixie!

((((((((((((((((( To All the Pixies, young and adult )))))))))))))))))))))

Sounds to me like you are all doing a lot of work towards your healing and understanding and acceptance. That's a wonderful thing! May you have continued success and find the peace you all so deserve!


sabby

(((((((((((((( all of you )))))))))))))))
You were very brave to talk to T!

You were so brave. I am so glad that you were able to trust someone enough to let them help you heal. Wow. Please know that each one of you is very special.

BB

HI PEEPLES. FANK U FOR BEEN NIS TO US DIS WEEK.

WE SAW OUR T AN IT WAS TUFF, BUT IT ALSO WAS GOOD COS IT DID SUMFING FOR SUM OF US. WE WAS ABLE TO SAY SUM STUFF THAT WE WAS FRAID OF SAYIN OR THINKIN BOUT US.

THEY MAD US DO BAD STUFF, NASTE STUFF. BAD BAD PEPL. SO SAD, SO UGLI. I HAT WAT THA DID I CANT FIN WERDS BIG AN BAD ENUF TO SAY HOW ROTTEN IT WAS. SORRY, I GO NOW.

I LIK U PEEPL A LOT, U BE VERE NIS. HUGS TO U BYE BYE

LELI AN KIKI PIXIES

(((((((((((((Leli, Kiki )))))))))))))))))))))

You should be proud of yourselves for being able to talk to T about the yucky rotten things that hurt you! I'm so glad you found the courage and strength to face your fears. That took a lot of work and you did a wonderful job.




sabby