Just scared, confused, even these new forums make me anxious.

I'm just stuck and don't know what to do. I keep telling myself, get a therapist, but I'm too scared to get one. Take medication for my other problems, too scared of medication to do that. I feel like my doctor is a brick wall, I get nowhere. Still haven't rescheduled to get my eye checked out.

Keep seeing things. Hearing things. Scary things. We all do. I don't know how to say this but I always feel like I'm so mad at all my alts. I still just don't understand anything.

I want to talk but it's like I don't know how. Or I want to talk and get help but I don't know how I can be helped I'm scared of so much and things get worse.

I don't know who I am, who anyone is, reality seems to scary sometimes because it's my reality

Thanks for letting me vent a little.

[thelostone]

((((((((((griffe))))))))))

new forums are making me a little anxious too. You do need to get a therapist, and get your eye checked out. maybe your girlfriend could help you find a therapist. you need to take care of you, and if you could find a therapist then maybe they could help you not be so scared. just a thought.

lost

[multipixie9]

Griffe,

I feel anxious about this new forum, I keep making mistakes and it won't do what I want. I just want to be nice to you and it won't let me. GRR.

I think a T could help you; you don't have to know what to say before you go. You need to help yourself get to a better place. I get confused sometimes and my head does weird things and I feel bizzare sometimes and I don't like my life or my own system of alts somedays. I had to learn to be nicer to me inside - ****some of the confusion and upset in my system was BECAUSE I was being mean to my insiders and they were mad at me too. Help is out there, I encourage you to seek some help and let your girlfriend help you find the help. It can get better than this, really!!!

Leslie and the Pixies:Good-Luck:

Originally Posted by Griffe

Just scared, confused, even these new forums make me anxious.

I'm just stuck and don't know what to do. I keep telling myself, get a therapist, but I'm too scared to get one. Take medication for my other problems, too scared of medication to do that. I feel like my doctor is a brick wall, I get nowhere. Still haven't rescheduled to get my eye checked out.

Keep seeing things. Hearing things. Scary things. We all do. I don't know how to say this but I always feel like I'm so mad at all my alts. I still just don't understand anything.

I want to talk but it's like I don't know how. Or I want to talk and get help but I don't know how I can be helped I'm scared of so much and things get worse.

I don't know who I am, who anyone is, reality seems to scary sometimes because it's my reality

Thanks for letting me vent a little.

[(JD)]

I think you're doing fine folks! It will become easier with time, and you'll like it very much I think. Have you changed the "skin" from the default to something you like better? That helped me. It's in "My Profile" up top.

New things are always a little anxiety driven. TC

[bipolar_bear]

Change can be scary and difficult when many inside have to learn the new forums and how they work. Maybe we can all work together and help each other learn. Know I am here and help all I can. ((((((((((((((((((((everyone)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

BB

[Clandestine]

Originally Posted by Griffe

I'm just stuck and don't know what to do. I keep telling myself, get a therapist, but I'm too scared to get one. Take medication for my other problems, too scared of medication to do that. I feel like my doctor is a brick wall, I get nowhere. Still haven't rescheduled to get my eye checked out.

You need to help yourself and see a therapist. I was given the opportunity to see one 8 months ago, but I disregarded it, the therapist and the medications themselves. Now I'm seeing a new one and I realized had I seen someone before, I should be better now.

It's not easy to trust another therapist but they're there to help you, even if you think they're a wall. Take your time to find a therapist where you'll be most comfortable with. :]

Originally Posted by Griffe

Keep seeing things. Hearing things. Scary things. We all do. I don't know how to say this but I always feel like I'm so mad at all my alts. I still just don't understand anything.

I wish you peace of mind.

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((Griffe))))))))))) Change is hard here too. I'm so sorry you are struggling.

I hope you will be able to go to a therapist soon. It's very helpful for me to have that unconditional support. I hope you will have that soon too.
Take care
:Heart::Heart::Heart: