[Typo]

How do I tell, this new T, about the alts.............
I know, that I cna't keep it a secret, and I told him on phone that I had issues with dissocation...lol...I make it sound so uncomplicated, but even if I wanted to keep Fernfox and Pip secret I couldn't, both are too vocal anymore...and I think this T would actually notice.

just, how on earth do I do this.....not just the T but just god, just everything, how do I breathe, how how how

Everything keeps slipping into random moments of pure chaos, it's like some horrible dance....

1...2...3....4..Fern.....1......2....3...4...Pip....1...2..3...4..Silver...and repeat

cycling cycling, in and out, where did I go, who is where now, why do I know someone one mintue adn then the next I am afraid of the same person unclear of who they are. I keep fogetting names and places...
friends come to me and ask me if I am okay, that I was acting weird a minute ago, and I say really?

goodness, I start out with a single question, and it becomes a page long rant....

[Kiya]

Dunno hun, but i trust that you will find the words and the right timing. =)
When do you see this new t??
(((((((((Silver and all)))))))))))

[Typo]

Monday........

scared.....hurting....not sures.......wanting to run away

(( Silver ))

I know you're nervous but try not to be.

You don't need all that added stress. That you are even aware of your alters and their names is actually a good thing. And the fact that you're young will also be beneficial to you. Most people don't present for treatment until their thirties and forties, (or later) because most are unaware that they have DID. So it's great that you'll be getting some help now and not later.

If you already told him you're experiencing some dissociation, he may give you some tests. There are a few that are used to determine where you fall in the range of dissociation. That will be of great help and will aid him in his diagnosis.

Structured Clinical Interview for DSM-IV Dissociative disorders (SCID-D)

The Dissociative Disorders Interview Schedule (DDIS)

The Dissociative Experiences Scale (DES)

Those should help him come to his own conclusions without you having to tell him straight out if you don't want to.

Maybe someone else will have a better idea.

Keep us posted.

[wanttoheal]

Like Orange said.

I did not even have a clue I dissociated or that my brain was parted (or what that even was) when I was younger. It wasn't until some life events went on that made things not work any longer that I went to T to help with other things. My T saw what was going on when I was so unaware. I didn't even go to T for dissociation, lol.

I think it's great too that you already know and already know parts. Sometimes I think about that. What if I had known back then what I know now. My life and the lives of my children would have been so much different. You are in a great position for healing.

Perhaps if you cannot tell T, you can write it down? I have a lot of problems with speaking out loud, but writing things down is allowed for my brain and it's how I communicate a lot of things with my T, even still today.

Best of luck and keep us posted.

[Sannah]

Silver, I am so glad that you found a T!!!!!!! Go see T and see how it goes. It might easily come out with the first visit.....

[(JD)]

Silver, you've already shared about dissociation. Now maybe just point to your head and say there are others...up here? T should know what that means (I think many people have this and think they are crazy.) Nothing you say should scare a T away or make them not like you or angry at you. Go with the flow hon. What else can you do?

[Kiya]

just be open and tell T you have 2 other alters and they prefer animal form - it can go from there.

[Typo]

aghh Pip no sures bout dis
me be scareds....and I no supposeded to be scarredes
Whats if da talking persons is mean...what if da talking person upsets Silver friend and fluffy tail Fern
What pip do? and me no want to talks to silly stupid squirell talkings man
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

[Kiya]

(((((((Pip)))))))))
you have good instincts.... I am sure you'll know right away if you can trust the man or not.

(((((((((((((((((((((((silver)))))))))))))))))))))))

I think wanttoheal's idea of writing it down is a great idea. I write things down for T sometimes - and sometimes it's scary and I leave the room while he reads it. He has never, ever rejected me for anything I have written down or told him. Ever.

You are so brave going to a new T. Kiya is right - trust your instincts. Maybe you can write down what you need to tell him and go from there.

[Kiya]

Earth, you actually leave the room when t reads stuff?? I'm so jealous!!!! @_@ If I don't want to know, hear, look - T won't either. "We work on stuff together". But I do send emails of things that I know i'd never get out otherwise.
When i wrote something down that was really difficult for me to tell MD, and I tried to dissociate, she said "Look at me...." and wouldn't continue reading until i looked at her.

I'm VERY good at "forgetting" that I'd brought something to read and I drop it off on my way out the door. T's on to it.

[Sannah]

Don't pressure yourself Silver. Just disclose what you are comfortable with.

[serafim_etal]

I agree with Sannah! Don't put pressure on your self(ves). There is not reason you have to say anything about it at all right now. We never told our T...she told us!

[multipixie9]

KIYA AND PACK,

T CANT HELP IN THE DARK. BIT BY BIT ONE MUST TELL T WHAT HAPPENS OF HE/SHE CAN'T DO ANYTHING AT ALL TO HELP.

PLUS - THERE IS NOTHING WRONG OR BAD ABOUT HAVING PARTS. IT JUST IS PART OF YOUR LIFE. IT IS A CREATIVE WAY TO SURVIVE BAD THINGS. BE GENTLE AND TRY TO STOP MAKING EACH OTHER FEEL BAD. YOU DID BEST YOU COULD TO GET BY AND THAT IS VERY GOOD THING.

IF THIS T ACCEPTS AND CAN HELP THEN WELL AND GOOD. IF T DOESN'T ACCEPT DON'T GO BACK, FIND SOMEONE WHO CAN ACCEPT AND WILL HELP ALL OF YOU.

MUST FIND A T WHO FITS YOU AND WILL HELP YOU AS YOU ARE, PERIOD!!!!!!!! I THINK IT IS GOING TO WORK OUT OK. JUST TRY.

[wanttoheal]

lol orange. I am pretty good at that as well.

[woundedhearts]

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

I'm VERY good at "forgetting" that I'd brought something to read and I drop it off on my way out the door. T's on to it.

I so do that, well I use to do it more than I am now. I do that with pictures that I draw that are a little not so good. I tend to draw out memories now and just go hide them somewhere in her office. She knows that too and will leave the office for a little bit and then come back in. She will notice the picture where I hide it and just leave it. Sometimes she will ask if she can see it. UGH!

[snowflakes]

((((((silver, pip and fern))))))

>>>>>
i think you should tell your T about it. Cause sooner or later he/she will gonna find out about it. you should give it a try. Just give Trust a Try. Please take care of yourself..



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