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last night i know i was all upset about something
blabbed off to my hubby, knowing he the cause
but poof
what it was about??
can't feel upset now, is all gone...
and feeled good sept a bit like , what the heck
makes me feel flaky, like i have no point
as hard as i try to get back to that part, doesn't happen
I know if I don't deal with it, I get talk about it on the inside
but can't think like that when stuck as not feeling anything like that
hubby took it well I know, maybe thankful the conflict was over

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((Shadow)))))))))))) That has happened to me as well. It's hard not remembering even though I have a knowledge that something happened, but I also have found it nice not to have to worry about it because it's not there. I think it's all part of what our brains do to keep going. It doesn't always work for the best as adults, but I know it is what kept me able to function and stay alive as a child.

Does hubby know you dissociate? Would you feel comfortable asking him to give highlights of it so you know what's going on?

Hang in there.

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Originally Posted by wanttoheal

(((((((((((((((Shadow)))))))))))) That has happened to me as well. It's hard not remembering even though I have a knowledge that something happened, but I also have found it nice not to have to worry about it because it's not there. I think it's all part of what our brains do to keep going. It doesn't always work for the best as adults, but I know it is what kept me able to function and stay alive as a child.

Does hubby know you dissociate? Would you feel comfortable asking him to give highlights of it so you know what's going on?

Hang in there.

Ya so hard, and ya it is nice IT"S not there for that time but I know it'll come back. I have a hard time with letting it go at that time when I know wsomething happened but then sometimes it's completly gone and all I know is a hint that we did this or that, no knowledge of the talk we just had, just that we talked. I do see how it keeped me alive as a child tho, always wondered what keeped me alive, now I know but will have to live with this for like FOREVER, but ohwell.
Ya, Hubby knows now that I dissociate and believes me cause I think he saw. But ya, makes it easier now when I can't hear him to just sit there with I think a blank look and he understand nothing is reaching me. I do ask sometimes for highlights but still feel uncomfortable about it.

[wanttoheal]

You don't have to live with it forever. The good news is that dissociation is a learned coping skill. It's possible to learn other coping skills. It takes time and hard work, but it's definitely possible.

I'm glad hubby understands and is supportive.

[pegasus]

Hugs ((((((( Shadow ))))))))

Missing conversations, I know so well. Sometimes other parts will share eventually, sometimes not.

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like right now...i feel so switchy
I'm noticing in my switchiness I feel compelled to blame my hubby for it, uhoh
My switchiness I want help for....I try to ask but I know it'll all come out wrong so I hold on as long as I can
knowing if I can't get a grip of one part soon, this will end up bad
least I learned something this time around but how to deal with it is the question.
I'm trying to ground myself, NOT WORKING
feel so alone but house is full of whom I love
daughter trying to talk to me but stuck in this messy place not knowing what to ssay....
CAn I talk with tears, that might not take long to come out, I feel it bubbling from within