Just who was this that handled ppl today?

Over 100 realtors and prospective buyers through the house today in a three hour window. I won't leave the property as my dog needs to be safe as well as the contents of the house. Don't trust nobody with nuttin'!!

But now that they've been gone for a bit I wonder just who the hell was talking out of my mouth answering questions to all these ppl about this place I've rented for six years.

My anxiety has been overwhelming lately and reduced me to immobility on Tuesday. Can barely get anything in and I highly doubt digestion is taking place.........sorry tmi.

I know that in my current state I couldn't have possibly dealt with so many strange ppl in my home. I now wonder what part took over this and am grateful that they stepped in.

Had phone calls from ins. companies and my dis. claim ppl to contend with while all these ppl were around. Chaos!!!!! Somehow numbers and messages were taken and my desk has a very organized accounting of today's calls and other matters...............which I am completely unable to do at this time.

I confuse the hell outta myself sometimes. At least pdoc with return call late Tuesday night said that he gave me an A+ for handling the day (crying for three hours straight, shaking from anxiety, teary all day and weeping off and on, etc) and gave me great reassurance that he is behind me in this and wants me to take additional medications for a few days to help the system get a little reprieve from this unrelenting anxiety. That really helped me so much to know despite feeling completely lost and out of control I still managed to handle the day in a way that was acceptible and applauded by my pdoc.

Guess an old dog can learn new tricks.

oh zh, i am glad you are at least surviving. it sounds like there is a wonderful functioning you in there. That is a nice gift out of all of this. So sorry for the stress. Glad you are keeping us posted. You know, I must be nuts cause everytime the realtor showed the house we would take the dogs and leave.

Way to go, zh! My pdoc always tells me that deep inside me there's an inner core of wellness that takes over when the outer me gets overwhelmed. Sounds like you've got that inner core thing going on, too. Brava, diva! Brava! -janesgang

zh, I don't know what to say, but I have lots of hugs for you, my dear...

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I don't know if you want to focus on the 'who' of this or focus mostly on the fact that you DID handle it. I try to do that. Boggles my mind trying to figure out who did what. I'm just thankful. I also just know that someBody will take care of whatever situation arises.
Love,
RhysMadison

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Thank you wisewoman. I have followed as best I can your unreal life and just am slackjawed.......well I'm slackjawed anyway but with all you and your family are going through I'm speechless as well! You're holding up splendidly.

I am surviving. Which is so different than other times when I just fell to pieces and surfaced ages later wondering what had happened.

It is strange not knowing how some things get done especially when I'm not feeling great overall but like you said it is a nice gift out of all this!

I most likely am nuts to have stayed for all three days and 300 ppl through the house but with that many I'm a non trusting cynical bulldog!

plus good socializing for dog........most ppl were animal lovers and gave lots of attention. wasn't all bad just feels like it! lol

Golly you make me blush janesgang!! I like you and your pdoc both! thank you for the support and reminder that perhaps there is an inner core of wellness I'm not yet aware of. Guess this is my wake up call

Hugs were very good at this time! Thank you much sweetie!! I'm not always up for them but with my depleted energy I guess I needed them more than I thought as I sucked them right up

I think it was the mental image of a broomstick with which to sweep all these freaky ppl outta my house that helped get me through. Thanks for support Fuzzette. Youse a good bear dear. I am grateful for the help you gave.

Great point RhysMadison! Chicken and egg thinking. My mind is boggled enough as it is! But at least you understand the wanting to figure it out.....

I'm glad you know your system will take care of things. I don't have that sense that all will be okay but then again there isn't a manual for dissociation.

if I rock then do you roll? and together do we make loud music?!