Feeling good but how long will this last

Today I had another ECT treatment and now I am not feeling depressed. I am actually feeling really good. I talked with my pdoc about the fact that I feel this way for a few days and then I am back to being depressed. I thought he would increase my treatments to weekly instead of biweekly but he didn't. I know that most of my depression is caused by the work I am doing in therapy but when I can't get out of bed for a couple of days I get really scared and concerned. When I get that way I am afraid I will end up back in the hospital (which is the last place I want to be). I see my pdoc on Tuesday and will stress again to him how I feel about the increased depression, especially the days I can't get out of bed. I just want to stay not depressed for a bit longer that a 4 or 5 days but I also know the work I am doing in therapy is really important. I can't wait for the day that I can stay not depressed for a longer while.

I just can't help but wait for day I am depressed again. My therapist is working really well with me and I appreciate this. I just hate that I am reporting to her in emails that I am always depressed. We will see what she has to say today when I see her.

Can you talk to him and ASK him to see him sooner? Impress upon him even more this time that you are feeling really distressed by this and need some resolve.

Can T help you? Can she talk to the Pdoc? Maybe you could ask her?

I know what it's like to feel like you are just waiting for depression to hit again, but it doesn't have to be that way. Try to live in the moment of that happiness. Try to do some fun stuff while there. Try to stay there. I'm not saying to look away from the possible upcoming depression, but just kinda push it aside for a little bit. The more you think about it, the more it is guaranteed to hit. I hope that makes sense.

What is ECT?

Safron~

ECT is electroconvulsive therapy. It is shock treatment for depression.

If there's any way you can get the treatment sooner go for it, it's GREAT tough that you can have even those 4-5 days of feeling better, I'm so glad you can.

Enjoy those days as much as you can, use them also to prepare for the depressed days, and do talk to the doctor