[Miracle1986]

dissociate? Because for me it seems like here recently,
every day I have either been what I call "floaty" or little Manda has been out.
And I am just thinking that can't be normal... can it?

[jeNeTeConnaisPas]

Originally Posted by Manda86

dissociate? Because for me it seems like here recently,
every day I have either been what I call "floaty" or little Manda has been out.
And I am just thinking that can't be normal... can it?

i am consistantly dissociating. i feel locked in my head, to where i cant hear or see anything. all the time...

if you can try grounding yourself it can help.

im still not very good at it. but i bet with practice my dissociting would lessen.

Scri of TBC

[Miracle1986]

Originally Posted by jeNeTeConnaisPas

i feel locked in my head, to where i cant hear or see anything.

EXACTLY!!!!
It's like I am a prisoner of my own mind

[FireBird]

For the past few weeks I have been dissociating a lot. When I was on my trip, I missed half of it due to my alter "Katie" coming out and she's only 5. Half the time I ain't know who I am or where I'm at. Also, things appear weird if that counts, especially words and my surroundings. Its like I'm looking at a different language! Somehow I am still able to type though....weird! Its because of the severe stress of me being a failure. I destroyed the world, yes, its my fault. I didn't mean to though. I really don't know what's going on at this moment. By the way, if it were Katie typing this, you would know because she writes like a 5 year old! The spelling is terrible, she can barely spell the word, "a." By the way, my real chronological age is 26...going on 90! My memory is horrible! I even have hot flashes! Old Age Syndrome should be included in the DSM V. Its when you have the symptoms of old age without actually being old. But sometimes I'm really young so now I don't make much sense! By the way, I never heard of the word thing before, surroundings yes (derealization), words no (unless it is a form of dyslexia but as you can tell from my spelling that is highly unlikely!)

[Rhapsody]

I always have one or two alters out and watching every day......

[wanttoheal]

I have found that increased stress causes more dissociation here. Also, it seems that the greater the trigger, the more I dissociate as well (and the combination can send me away for long periods). As I've gained more awareness, it sometimes doesn't feel as normal, but I've been doing it forever so I tend to think of it as normal. I just didn't realize what it was called. So, while it might not be normal overall, it seems to be normal for me.

I often don't know when I dissociate to the point of disappearing and so I tend to just keep going where I end up. There have been too many times to count that I've started doing something and end up some place else doing something else, but I usually just keep doing what it looks like I've been doing, once I figure it out. I don't know that that is very healthy but it's effective in keeping going, I guess.

As for floaty type feelings, I actually am okay with that. I want to say I like it, but that probably sounds odd. When I'm in that state, it feels like nothing can get me because I'm too far away and so I feel safe. I guess it helped during times when I couldn't get to a safe place so my brain made a place for me to be safe in the circumstance. While it gets in the way a lot more now, it still feels safe to me. Though maybe it just feels familiar, I'm not sure.

Staying present is really hard work, in my opinion. It feels like I have to concentrate so hard to stay present through something completely. I don't think I succeed, but I do try more now. It wears me out, lol.

Be gentle to yourself Manda, if you can. Your brain is coping as it best knows how. It takes time to learn new coping skills.

[crystalrose]

I only split now when im really stressed out. It used to be almost always.

[MisanthropicOne]

Stress related. Once or twice daily.. up to losing multiple days.