feels like i am floating

Miracle1986 · Mar 15, 2009, 07:48 PM

not sure if this goes here... sorry...

Help!!!!
I have no idae what is going on, but all i know i feel like i am floating.
like i not really inn my boby, well i am... but not hard to explain..... spacing out///
and befor u as no i not high

wanttoheal · Mar 15, 2009, 09:00 PM

(((((((((((((manda))))))))))) That is a form of dissociation. Here is some info on it if you'd like to read more.

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What is depersonalization?
Depersonalization is the sense of being detached from, or “not in” one’s body. This is what is often referred to as an “out-of-body” experience. However, some people report rather profound alienation from their bodies, a sense that they do not recognize themselves in the mirror, recognize their face, or simply feel not “connected” to their bodies in ways which are challenging to articulate (Frey, 2001; Guralnik, Schmeidler, & Simeon, 2000; Maldonado et al., 2002; Simeon et al., 2001; Spiegel & Cardeña; Steinberg, 1995).

You can go here for more information: http://www.isst-d.org/education/faq-...ion.htm#depers

Miracle1986 · Mar 15, 2009, 09:04 PM

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Originally Posted by wanttoheal

(((((((((((((manda))))))))))) That is a form of dissociation. Here is some info on it if you'd like to read more.

You can go here for more information: http://www.isst-d.org/education/faq-...ion.htm#depers

Thanku
I guess I did post in the right place
Arrgh... I don't like this flighty feeling!!!
heart beats fuuny

turquoisesea · Mar 15, 2009, 09:14 PM

*hugs Manda*

*eachoes what wanttoheal said*

I don't like this kind of feeling when it happens to me. You will come back, remember that. Try to relax as best you can, do some stuff you enjoy. Things are hard for you now, try to separate yourself from your problems, instead focusing on something you enjoy so you can feel safe to "come back" to full reality...
sending hugs
~turquoisesea

Miracle1986 · Mar 15, 2009, 09:25 PM

how loong does this feeling usually last?
MAKKE IT STOP PLEEEASE!!!?!!!
Manda is scared!!!

possum220 · Mar 15, 2009, 09:40 PM

Dear Manda,

Try some deep breathing. Maybe you feel so spacey because part of you is exhausted. Can you have a nap?

Please bring this up with your T or Pdoc next time you see them.

Possum

Miracle1986 · Mar 15, 2009, 09:45 PM

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Originally Posted by possum220

Maybe you feel so spacey because part of you is exhausted. Can you have a nap?

I have slept most of the day cuz of my damn Topamax (see post in drug questions)... or maybe it was cuz of depression AND Topamax... idk

Sannah · Mar 16, 2009, 09:16 AM

Manda, it is probably happening when you have feelings which are too difficult to deal with so you dissociate like this.......

Miracle1986 · Mar 16, 2009, 01:58 PM

Thought it would be better today, but no
I just got up like 2 hours ago and everything fesls like its a haze
and I still feel like I am floating :-/

turquoisesea · Mar 16, 2009, 02:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Sannah

Manda, it is probably happening when you have feelings which are too difficult to deal with so you dissociate like this.......

*agrees*

Manda, I wanted to add you're not alone, I think I started dissociating more and more as I was more and more depressed - I duno what originally caused it but I DO know that depression can make it worsen/appear.

It won't be there forever, can you talk to us about some of the feelings you have been dealing with lately? I agree with Sannah, these feelings might be why you are dissociating right now...

sending many hugs to you

Miracle1986 · Mar 16, 2009, 02:40 PM

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Originally Posted by turquoisesea

can you talk to us about some of the feelings you have been dealing with lately?

I think more than anything, I have been angry... absolutely fed up. I am sick of living with my in-laws and I don't see an end in sight.

turquoisesea · Mar 16, 2009, 03:09 PM

inlaws x.x
that would do it right there, what do you do to deal with your anger?

suppressed anger is probably majorly contributing to all this...

so how have you been dealing with the anger?

cantstopcrying · Mar 16, 2009, 03:13 PM

((((((((((((manda)))))))))))))) sending you hugs!! Remember that this could very well be another way of coping with living with them. As was echoed earlier, you may have feelings that are just too big to cope with. If your husband is gone much the Reserves and work, you are left alone, somewhere that you hate, you don't fit in and this is really, really starting to affect you. What's the status on getting a therapist--I know last time I talked to you, you didn't have one.

Miracle1986 · Mar 16, 2009, 03:18 PM

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Originally Posted by turquoisesea

inlaws x.x
that would do it right there, what do you do to deal with your anger?

suppressed anger is probably majorly contributing to all this...

so how have you been dealing with the anger?

Umm... I get my husband to get me away from from the house as much as possible.
And when we can't (no gas, no money, etc) I just tend to hide away upstairs in the bedroom we stay in,
that or I get absorbed into my computer and hide away in PC or somewhere

Sannah · Mar 16, 2009, 04:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Manda86

I think more than anything, I have been angry...

The feelings that you are having a hard time dealing with which are bringing on the dissociation?

Miracle1986 · Mar 16, 2009, 07:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Sannah

The feelings that you are having a hard time dealing with which are bringing on the dissociation?

it's the only thing I can think of... either that or just depression

Mar 16, 2009, 08:39 PM

((((((((((((((((((((((((Manda)))))))))))))))))))))))

I dissociate a LOT more when I am anxious. I think that if that is a coping mechanism that we use, big, hard feelings like anxiety, fear, anger, sadness, can cause us to just kind of "leave".

i hope you feel better

Miracle1986 · Mar 17, 2009, 09:09 PM

Hmmm.... this is soooo weird, earlier today, I was seemed to "come back myself" things made sense again...
it felt like something literally "clicked" in my head I remembered things, etc
and then a few hours later without warning I started to floating away and I suddenly had to start checking
my feet to make sure they were still on the floor!!!!

And now my thoughts are fuzzy again. Everything is hazy. Sounds are muffled. FEELS SURREAL!!!

Sannah · Mar 18, 2009, 09:02 AM

Going to your therapy appt today will start you on the road to recovery................

sunnye · Mar 18, 2009, 02:42 PM

I have had this for so long that I got used to it. I thought it was normal

. I become numb. I have such trouble just getting around and getting things done, including taking a shower and getting ready. So, I guess I can sort-of relate, although I don't know if I dissociate the very same way you do. What saved us as children is really harming us now as adults. It's hard stuff.

multipixie9 · Mar 19, 2009, 08:01 AM

MANDA,

CAN YOU TRY "TALKING TO YOUR HEAD"? THE MORE I TRY TO INTERACT WITH MY PARTS THE LESS SCAREY IT IS.

MAYBE YOU CAN TRY TO ACCEPT THE FLOATY FEELINGS FOR NOW AND LEARN SOME GROUNDING TECHNIQUES FOR WHEN YOU NEED YOUR FEET ON THE FLOOR. FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN IS NATURAL, BUT TRYING TO LEARN HOW TO ACCEPT SOME THINGS MIGHT EASE YOUR TENSION A LOT.

YOU ARE GOING TO BE OK, ONE LAST THOUGHT, MAYBE YOU NEED TO FIND SOME PILLOWS TO PUNCH OR SOMETHING TO PHYSICALLY EXPRESS ANGER (ALONE AND AWAY FROM IN-LAWS OF COURSE). THIS MIGHT HELP YOU BE SAFER TO STAY "IN THE BODY". I GOTTA GO, NEED SLEEP. HUGS IF YOU WOULD LIKE THEM,

LESLIE AND HER PIXIES

Miracle1986 · Mar 19, 2009, 08:04 PM

I have no idea what is going on but today it's like I keep coming on going.
Like one second I'll be fine and the next I'll just start floating away then
after a little while I'll, without really noticing it... BEAM!!! I'm back in my body.
But, then, in a few minutes, without warning, I notice I am waaay outside
my body away... like right now I am floating so high it's not funny I don't even
know if I'm making sense.